21 Years Old, Colllege Student/ No Kids, Breast Augmentation!! - Newport Beach, CA

So my surgery has been on my mind everyday, all day. I'm assuming this is a sign that I should just go for it! I am really considering calling dr. taneja and setting up my appointment for the ends of July. Every time I go into a store and see bikinis, I get super excited. I am really close to calling them this week and not look back.
AHH!

I have finally found the time and courage to share my story and my journey since I found it extremely motivational reading others. I am currently 21 years old, single, no kids, and finishing my last year of college. I am about 5'6, 125 pounds. I have always been a slim girl especially throughout middle school and high school. I was always secretly subconscious with my body, I just never said anything. It was until High School that I started to grow a cute plump booty, but my boobs seemed to never grow (well, the way I wanted and expected them to grow). I have always been really subconscious about my boobs, especially when I am surrounded by younger girls who have bigger boobs than me. Having bigger boobs have always been in the back of my mind for many years now. In High school it bothered me so much seeing other girls develop and I was still stuck with my middle school boobs. I have had thoughts of taking birth control just to see if they will make my boobs "grow." This has killed my self-esteem in many ways. Yes, I know I should love and accept my body; however, I feel like now I am a little older, I am about to graduate and start my career soon, so if it makes ME happy, then I should go for it. I also suffer from an anxiety/ panic disorder. I was diagnosed about 3 years ago, and although it has gotten better, the thought of surgery freaks me out so much. I am tired of letting this anxiety disorder control my life and stop me from living my life the way I want to live it.
I have thought about breast surgery for almost a year now and I finally went for my consultation with Dr. Taneja about 2 months ago. My aunt did her breast augmentation with him and she was completely in love. When I came for my consultation, Dr. Taneja and his staff were so welcoming and reassuring. He suggested that I go for a small D. At first I thought that was too big since I am a slim girl, but once they had me try on the implants, they looked perfect! I was so happy and excited after I left my consultation, I wanted to book my surgery appointment right away. I spoke to my parents about it, and of course my mom was more accepting of it than my dad. But she ended up speaking to him and suggested he supported me too if it was made me happy. I thought about it all day everyday and I decided I wanted to schedule my appointment for this summer, around the Beginnings or Mid of July since I start school in August and I want to be fully recovered by then. I was ready to make my deposit and reserve my appointment date, but now I am procrastinating because feelings of fear and doubt are kicking in :( I want it soooooo bad!! because I know it's going to make me happy and it's something I've been wanting, but I don't want nothing to go wrong. I guess these feelings are normal, I just don't know how to snap out of it. Hopefully I do because I still want this super bad.