28 Y/o 34 JJ, No Kids, Ready to Get This over with. New York, NY

A bit of a setback. On Wednesday night last week I discovered a small separation at the incision on my left boob. I was in Maryland at the time and not near my doctor so I called the office. The doctor was out and I talked to his MA. She assured me that this was a known complication that sometimes happens and told me to put no stick gauze on and only to rinse with soap and water. Since that day the separation has just slowly grown wider along the incision line. It is so stressful and I worry so much about more holes or this one expanding even more. I've emailed my surgeon but he hasn't got back to me. I would feel so much better if I could be reassured about this wound eventually healing as its showed no signs of closing up. Id also love to be provided with gauze that is truly no stick (the "no stick" gauze I have now is just horrendous).

Other than that I feel better overall. I get a lot of zingers as you ladies call them :) but they don't last long thankfully. I can sleep on my side for a bit each night. I started back to work today. It wasn't bad until the end of the day neared and I felt swollen and tired but pretty much back to normal.I'm not as stressed over my scars as I was before and I think I would be more relaxed if I didn't have the separation and if I could have a visit with my surgeon where he could look at the wound. Luckily I work in the hospital so I'm hoping to get the to visit with my surgeon as soon as I get the chance. Still no regrets!

Today started out good. I had my first post op visit the Dr was in and out but he said everything looks fine. I was a little worried because I took a shower yesterday and found some greenish purulent drainage on my bandages. Not a whole lot but enough to stress me out. I brought it up to my surgeon and he didn't seem worried. I was glad he wasn't worried, he told me I could start wearing sports bras and I was excited to go to the store and get this awful surgical bra off and find something more comfy.

My mom and I went straight to target. It turned out they didn't have any front close sports bras. I was terrified of trying on bras. In the fitting room I looked at the gauze pads and found another dab of yellowish/greenish drainage. On top of that when I got another look at my boobs I just broke down crying. I know it's apart of the healing process but I just can't get comfortable with the scars and dents right now. I feel like Frankenstein's monster. I really hope they begin to look better soon. That and I'm worried about the drainage. I was hoping I wouldn't see it again. I feel different even from the other post op photos I see on here. Tomorrow I will post pics maybe it's not so bad.

This evening has been filled with uncomfortable bloating and back pain from constipation and it's really hard to sleep on my back. In spite of all this I don't regret it. It's just been a hard day /: