Fixing Orange peel texture from Derma Pen and Retin a Damage

Tomorrow will be my first plastic surgery consult with Dr. Samir Undavia. He said if he cannot help that he will send me to someone who can. Luckily, it is less than a 2 hour drive from my house so it's much closer than the other consults I have planned in other areas of the country. I'm very anxious to hear his response, but trying to stay positive. I'm not sure what is going on with my skin because unlike many others mine has the holes and dents yet is very raw and red looking. I was told that my barrier is in "emergency mode" which creates the barrier hole texture and that the constant inflammation from stress puts you in a cycle of not being able to heal. It's the perfect storm. Lack of sleep, poor diet, daily stressors keeps your skin from healing. Almost all topicals burn me and leave me looking flushed. Prior to this experience I could use anything or do any treatment I wanted with no adverse reaction. I had beautiful skin and was complimented all the time on it. But I failed to see how great my skin was...all I focused on were the couple fine lines and I wanted to eliminate them. In retrospect, my skin was pretty amazing for early 30's. I keep beating myself up over this everyday. I just want to go back so badly because my life has changed drastically from this. I'm no longer the fun loving, outgoing, kind person I once was. It's eaten away at my soul and even when I try to be happy I find myself "forcing it." I'm always thinking of ways to fix it. I pray that the doctor will be able to help me get my confidence back even if I have to wait 6-12 months to do any type of treatment. Patience is key...but it's something I'm lacking. Please don't do derma pen unless you are aware of the risks and willing to a chance.

This is to document my story. Six months ago I developed what looks like pin hole scarring, fat loss, and dents and overall horrible skin texture after 4 derma pen treatments (if I use the actual company's name I will be blacklisted, harassed and who knows what else so I can't disclose it on here). I was on Retin A at the time of the treatments (not used simultaneously) and also had a strange reaction to it. I've had no issues with any other skin treatments in the past. My skin was very resilient before this and now it flushes constantly. The past 6 months have been a complete nightmare. I've been put on anxiety medication and am merely existing. Everything that I love to do is overshadowed by this intense ache in my heart. I'm trying very hard to stay positive and to work towards my goals of correcting the damage done. I have my first consult with Dr. Parker Velargo coming up soon. I'm looking to get fat transfer and dermabrasion/peel. I am hoping that with his skill and knowledge that I can overcome this traumatic experience. However, I know that I will never fully get over this as it's changed me on a deeper level. It's awful to do something to improve your appearance and to be left not recognizing yourself in the mirror. My heart goes out to everyone dealing with damage whether it be from derma pen, laser, Retin A, ect. I will update this with pictures soon. And I'll update it after I eventually get my procedures done. ????