29, 5'2, 32AA, Sientra HP Smooth round 375cc 405cc

I have done two consults in my area and felt comfortable with both surgeons. In the end, price made my decision. I am currently a 32aa and the biggest I ever got to was 34b while pregnant and nursing. I didn't even get enough to look deflated when I stopped.
I've wanted implants for years but I never had the finances to do it. I didn't feel comfortable taking out a line of credit for something that is elective. My hubby didn't really want me to do it because he didn't think it was necessary. After watching me struggle with buying a ball dress that fit my non existent chest, he realized that my opinion would never change. With him on board and finances in place I am ready to make the next step!
I did an in office appointment with Dr. Church at Wilmington Plastic and a virtual appointment with Dr. Zannis. Both were knowledgeable and very nice. I had no issues with the staff of either. Ultimately Dr. Zannis is $2k cheaper for silicone gummy bears so that is who I chose.
I have someone flying in to stay with me and my son for a week and help out. Now all I need to do is pay my deposit! So super nervous about it so I've been putting it off for a couple weeks. The wait is over. Tomorrow I'm going to pay up!

Well I scheduled my surgery for March 10 and paid my deposit. I think I'm more nervous about the money going into this than anything else. I'm not looking forward to the pain and discomfort either, but I'm suddenly feeling selfish. It's a lot of money that maybe we should just save instead.

I have to miss work next month for some appointments for my son, so they agreed to let me do my preop the same day as my surgery. That makes me super nervous too! But it's over an hour away and I would miss at least 2 hours of work to do it before. And I'll have to miss more work for the post op. Deeeeep breaths....

Attached a current size photo. I'm thinking 350-375 but I won't do sizing until the day of surgery. Yikes!

I pay my balance tomorrow for my surgery. It's killing me to think about how much money this is and wondering if I'm being horribly selfish. It doesn't help that someone I thought would support me has spent a lot of time judging my decision. She is trying to be nice about it, but clearly she disapproves.
So back to the sizers... I did a cup and half of rice, so the equivalent of 355 cc according to the chart I used. I think it gives me the look I'm going for, especially with my size. I just wonder if I should get up in size just a bit since it will look smaller under the muscle. I also don't want to end up with D or DD. So here is my before and after with the sizers. Anyone out there have any thoughts?