53 Yr Old Mom Finally Getting Rid of Spare Tire

Two days from now, I'll be in surgery. Something I've wanted and needed for 20+years. My babies were 9.5lbs and 10.1lbs. and they ruined my once near perfect figure, hahaha. For years, I battled my weight, working hard then giving up....emotionally eating, mindless eating, exercising not exercising. Taking care of everything and everyone else, but often neglected myself. I allowed my youthful years to pass by in a plus sized body, so lame.

Two years ago, my younger sister chose to work hard and lose weight come hell or high water. Her determination was an inspiration. She lost 85lbs and went to Tijuana for a mommy makeover. I went with her to help her through her recovery, which was no picnic for her. However, the results were amazing. I've decided not to travel for my surgery, need to stay closer to home and work, even though it's more expensive than Mexico. It's only money right? ????Trust me, I can barely afford it. But how can I not invest in myself? I deserve to live the rest of my life inside a body I can enjoy and not look like a frumpy woman. I've chosen my surgeon with the help of a dear friend who is a medical professional and knows which plastic surgeons are excellent artists and who aren't so much so.

I've shopped for all the various supplies needed for recovery. Monday is pre op meeting and EKG. I'm a little nervous about being sent home same day. However, I have help at home and will have plenty of pain meds available. My sister lives in another state, but she will be a great support via telephone.

I'll post before pictures tomorrow, will have them taken at pre op.

Today is Easter, symbol of new life, new beginnings, ultimate love. Praise God for days throughout the year that remind us of such beautiful things. I'm getting by with taking Advil for discomfort. Need a shower, but will wait til someone can help me later. Trying to stay hydrated and nourished, of course. Removed the catheter yesterday, what a blessing it was during first few days! Knock on wood, no sign of an UTI. Felt emotional this morning, had a little cry. Wasn't about the surgery, but over a recent breakup. Hadn't cried about it for a week or so, guess remnants of sadness still lurks. I promise to post pictures when I get a shower....can't wait to see my new body, swelling, incisions, drains, and all. Girls, please don't let your youth pass you by in a body your aren't happy with! Life is short, get in shape, get healthy, and save up for the best surgeon you can afford and get it done!!!! Yes, it's important to love ourselves no matter what we look like, but to have regrets is sad. To regret all those summers, vacations not taken, experiences avoided due to fat rolls is inexcusable! Better late than never! Thankful today for having the guts to do this for myself.