Here It Goes - Nashville, TN

My story...

8 years ago I decide as a divorce present to myself, I would get breast implants. I have a small rib cage and told the doctor that I didn't want to look pornorific, I wanted to look proportionate and a boost in confidence wouldn't hurt either. I wore a padded A growing up and have a small body frame. So I got 200 cc over filled to 220 cc Mentor implants under the muscle. After the surgery I was a little lopsided so 6 months later I went back to have it fixed. The second surgery went fine and it honestly didn't even really bother me that I had to go back in for another surgery.

Fast forward 8 years and now my left implant has deflated and I am at a crossroads. I have to decide whether to have them removed completely or replaced. I went to see the first PS with the intention of just having them replaced. Then I started thinking about the future and I started asking myself if I wanted to have to deal with future surgeries or the possibility of complications. So I went back to the PS to ask my questions about explanting. Now, I am a researcher type so I went a got 3 "quotes". Hey that's what I would do with my car so why not with my body? The first PS said that I wouldn't like the way they looked if I had them taken out but would do what ever I chose, the 2nd PS just said they wouldn't look good, I wouldn't like them and the third told me as best he could what he felt like I could expect. I have chosen the 3rd PS for my surgery because I was the most comfortable with him and appreciated the way he answered my questions. I have set a surgery date for the simple fact that I have to have one or the other done.

So my concerns are as follows;

Aesthetics - What will they look like? Will the very little that is there just sag? How will clothes fit me? Will I be able to find a bra that I feel comfortable in? And Lord, what will men think????

Asymmetry - The PS nurse said that a lot of times patients forget this aspect and don't think about it, I told her it scares the hell out of me and I think about it all the time!

I can't think of any health concerns, removing a non-functional foreign item from ones body probably isn't a bad thing.

I don't qualify myself a vain person but yes, I do care about how I look to an extent.

So that's my story. I've been reading all of your amazing stories, advice and support for over 3 months. Now that my surgery date is a week away, I've decided to post my personal story.