Life Changing Alright but Not in a Good Way

So I was told to never talk to them again after they refuse to accept they fucked up. I have seen many trans vaginas have a full labia minora mine is barely halfway. I did my research and it says scrotal tissue would be used to make thr minora. Instead I was told by the nurse the used my urethra to make it. Thats fucking disgusting pee used to use that for 27 years and you used that. The documents say nothing about urethra being used it says it gets discarded after shortening. So im going to have an obviously fake botched vagina with just a visible hole. The cavity shouldnt be obvious i have seen enough trans vaginas to know this. I want to kill myself because of this man. Oh god how I wish I listened to tge horror stories vs the obvious fake stories. I cant even pee right it goes between spraying and dribbling.

#4 is almost impossible to get in. I can now see 2 dots. A chunk of flesh attached to somewhere between urethra and cavity became detached with it hanging out stil fully attached. The end of the flesh has died and hardened. Theres sutures that can be felt now before cavity where i can guess it came out from. The douche nozzle now hurts inserting. Please go to someone else like Dr.Suporn. I regret coming here and have had increasing thoughts of suicide as a result.

Since this was paid for by my countries health program can't give you any info about price. The surgeon saw me briefly 2hrs before my surgery. When it came to surgery time I went into one of their operating rooms where 5 members of the support team were already there. I had a IV put in, the oxygen tube in and the needle in my back, and was gassed without seeing my surgeon enter the room. The care unit I had a transphobic patient in the same room who they did get rid of 2 hours later but did not reprimand here. So yeah disrespect is tolerated here since they didn't talk to her about it. The care home is freezing they blast that a/c way too much. Theres only 11 rooms and 3 nurses yet I seen a nurse more often at a hospital than here. Once everything was removed I knew it was botched. Aesthetically its a mismashed mess. Dr. Brassard brought in another surgeon to introduce me too afterwards twice. Why would he need to do that unless he had him practise on me as part of his training? Makes sense now why I was knocked out before the surgeon came in. My aftercare is going pretty bad I have been following his routinue yet it gets harder and more painful to do each day. I have lost 0.5 inches even though I went all the way to the wall at the end of cavity which isn't hard to tell. My incisions on left middle opened and so has the ones at the bottom right of cavity. As a result it bleeds and not to mention its painful to get anything near there. The right inner minora has fused and looks obviously bad compared to left. Theres barely any minora and it only goes halfway around vulva. The only positives is the douches have becomes almost blood free and bruising is gone. Do not expect them to be there for you after surgery as ascleipaide has been bad with any assistance I needed. One last thing was when asked about the results from Dr. Brassard I said I was displeased and he proceeds to say but its better than what you had before. Honestly that was disgusting to say to somebody whos displeased with your work. I regret going to him I wish I had gone to Dr. Suporn.