Yesterday was the big day!

I officially stopped bleeding from my breasts in early May. They finally closed up enough where I would be able to swim if I wanted to. My scars still hurt, particularly on my stomach. They’re sensitive. I still notice a bit of diastasis around my stomach, but given the experience I’ve had, I’m good with it. I am seeing if my belly button can be corrected because it is shallow and huge. My scars on my breasts are pretty extensive. I look great in a push up bra or a tank top but I’m pretty insecure with nothing on. I’m covered in scars. When asked if I would do this again, I’m not sure. My experience with my breasts was the most painful experience I ever had. I want to say, I don’t blame this on dr koo. Her and her staff were great to me. I avoided infection and dr koo was available every time I texted her: even if it was just to cry and express my sadness. I wish my results would have turned out differently. But, I am happy that I have a flat stomach and that my boobs no longer hit the floor. However, in saying this, I don’t think I would have ever chosen this road if I knew how bad it would be for me. But this was my journey. It doesn’t mean yours will be the same.

I thought I was making progress with my wounds. But, I went to see my doctor a few days ago and apparently a lot of the skin I thought was coming in was dead. I was told I needed to be scrubbing more around the wounds. After seeing her, my wounds are bright red again, tender to the touch and I feel as though I took five steps back. Once again, I can’t stand the way I look or being in my skin. My bra hurts me to the touch. The cold weather hurts. If my kids or dogs bump into me just right, blood seeps through my bra (more so than usual.) I understand that I will heal eventually but this has been three months of hell, and after losing the progress I thought I had made, idk how many more months I’ll have of this.
This has greatly impacted my mental health, my body image, my intimate life, and anything I seeked to improve by doing this surgery in the first place. While my doctor has been great by texting me whenever I have needed her, and has been nice, I can honestly say that if I could go back, I would have kept my deflated boobs. Deflated boobs beat bleeding for months any day of the week. However, I would do the tummy tuck again in a heartbeat. That has been a breeze and aside from a few stitches splitting a few weeks in, I had no issues with it and recovery has been as expected.
I do not smoke. I eat well. Prior to this I did yoga and exercised at least three days a week. I have followed every post op instruction I received and continue to do so. I am so frustrated and tired of this.

I forgot a photo that includes the larger wound I had and it’s progress.