Today's the day! I'm getting my surgery today!

I'm still not going to post pictures. Doing so apparently opened me up to unnecessary criticism and being told by non-doctor what to do, even from someone who condemned the criticism given to another realself member a few years back. My body is extremely imperfect, and still isn't completely perfect even after surgery from top rated surgeons. I hate being reminded that my boobs "aren't that big" for having 800cc because that just rubs it in that I'm disproportionate and apparently super duper flat chested without the implants. That triggers the anxiety I had about being picked on for being flat by boys at school all those years ago. My husband says my boobs are great and big, and that he likes the position they're at now, so I guess that's what really matters. If bigger silicone implants ever become available in the US, I would be interested in upgrading again because I want to go even bigger than a DD next time, especially since I'm thick below the waist, which causes my boobs to look comparatively smaller than they are. I am hoping I drop and fluff a little more. I feel I'm still not totally there yet. But last BA it took seemingly forever for them to drop much at all.
Speaking of waistline, I really like my belly now. Waiting for the dark scarring to heal; it takes longer for scars to fade on me compared to most others. I still have a few Cushing's stretch marks near the bottom but again, that's my own crappy body's fault, not my surgeon's. I have WAY less than I had pre-TT, so the TT has been a wild improvement for me. I'm no longer embarrassed if my shirt accidentally rides up and exposes part of my belly. I haven't worn compression as much these days but I still do sometimes. I have a fitness compression belt/waist trainer that I wear on occasion. It helps with my posture and back comfort. I just have to be careful making it too tight, which is very tempting to do, because while it makes my waist look super small it leaves (temporary) marks.

...and sit this one out, just as Trump himself impishly plans to do with the now-virtual second round of Presidential debates next week. So there'll be no pictures posted by me, and no lengthy explanations or me feeling the need to validate unsolicited criticism by overexplaining myself. Trump might be a bratty infamous imp (who I do not even like at all), but even he's gotten more respect than I feel I've gotten in one regard on this site. I don't care if you're a so-called Real Self "Insider" or not, point is, if I have made my decisions and seem content with them, stop telling me what I should have done differently. It is RUDE. I've been too nice about it so far, even throwing myself under a bus sometimes in my explanations, but bottom line, I shouldn't have to explain myself and my body decisions to ANYBODY much less a queen bee who isn't my surgeon. All it does is imply that I look bad. As someone else pointed out, dog poop presented all wrapped up in a pretty box with a bow on top is still unasked-for dog poop. Especially when any "coulda, woulda, shoulda" criticism is moot and postdated, concerning a surgery that is already done and in the past. Even this explanation is giving more validation than I should give. I am not here to debate, argue, or " rap battle" with anyone here. I came here for information and lack of drama (unlike Facebook, which is full of drama), but instead, I've found myself very unhappy as I gripe to my husband and best friend about the continued, repeated, unasked-for "advice". So I'm sitting this one out.

I took a nice long walk today. Still not standing upright 100% but better than it's been. I was cleared to start light gym exercises 2 weeks ago but I still don't feel physically ready yet. I will probably try within a week or two.