29 year old mother of 3 breastfed children doing something for myself :) Mobile, AL

I am scheduled for surgery on November 18th... That is 12 days from now!!! 12 days... I am on a roller coaster of emotions and have been having dreams about this augmentation since I went for my consultation a few weeks ago. I'll give some background. I waited FOREVER for my breast to grow past an A cup, but it NEVER happened. I was so discouraged during high school when the rest of my friends were blooming and I wasn't. However, in my late teens and early 20's, I accepted my perky A cups, because I was thick and had curves everywhere else, along with a big butt, and you can't have it all, right?! Well fast-forward 9 years and 3 breastfed kids later, and these flaps of skin that used to be my perky breast haunt me daily. I have wanted a BA since after I breastfed my first child 6 years ago, but have always put it off so my children could have things instead. With each child, things have gotten WORSE for my boobs. My right boob was my main milk maker, and therefore that areola is larger and that boob is slightly bigger and saggier :( Soooo... I have decided on an areola reduction to make them match (which really freaks me out due to the scars that could form around them after the surgery). My surgeon said only a areola reduction/lift was needed on the right side, but if I'm spending all this money, I want my boobs, scars and all to match. I am also going with 420cc moderate round silicone gel implants under the muscle. I am thinking that being that I am a very flat, sad, deflated A cup right now, that I will be a Full C - Small D after my surgery. I would love to hear from any of you ladies with the donut incision/benelli lift with the breast augmentation at the same time. I have so much anxiety, that I may even back out of this surgery, even though I have already paid in full and bought my post op bras, etc. I want this more than anything, but I just keep reading and looking at pics of things that could go wrong, and it scares me to death!

Here are my before breasts, that have nursed 3 children for 2 1/2 years.