Getting my Life Back After Many Years of Surgery and Upset - Manchester, GB

Hi everyone, my story started approx 20 years ago after many years of being unhappy with my saggy empty boobs. My first trip to see a surgeon was from my home town in the north west of England to a private hospital in London. My friend had told me about a programme on the BBC that featured this particular surgeon and that she did lots of breast ops, normally for reductions or reconstructions. I rang the BBC and they gave me the details so I arranged a consultation and off we went on the 4 hour trek.

All that I wanted at this time in my life was some understanding of how my breasts made me feel and thought that a female sugeon would do just that and offer advice and support, unfortunatley her bedside manner left a lot to be desired, she made me feel as though I was wasting her time. She said that I would be really scarred with a lift and that I would have to have implants and that I needed to see a shrink before surgery to see if I could mentally cope with the results of surgery!!

Needless to say I went home in tears and tried to put it to the back of my mind.
But as all of you ladies will know having any kind of issue with your breasts knocks your confidence and the way that you feel about yourself.

So in 2001 I went to a well known clinic and ended up having my breast lift, the outcome was terrible as the surgeon took breast tissue away instead of just lifting. In 2002 I had surgery to have my first set of implants as I had been told by several surgeons that this was all that I could do to make the appearance better.

Again it was a disaster as the surgeon placed the implants behind my muscle but too high. for 6 months I wore a tight band across the top of my breasts to try and push them down. As this failed to work he then did a partial areola lift to try and balance things out.
In 2006 after saving really hard I went to yet another surgeon and had the implants replaced and my breasts remodelled. I was really happy with the overall appearance but always had discomfort in my right breast. 2007 the same surgeon removed the right implant, released more musle and put the implant back. Dec 2011 I decide that after years of discomfort I would go and see him again and ask him if there was anything else he could do for me, but he beat me to it and sent me a letter just after Christmas to inform me that I had PIP implants. After having an MRI ( both ruptured) I had them replaced in Feb this year. From day one I have been in pain /discomfort in my right breast. My GP, surgeon, consultant at the hospital all tell me it will settle down.I know it wont. My surgeon will not reply to my emails,one ps I paid to see told me to re educate my brain against the pain! My most recent trip was to see a breast consultant yesterday. he is not a ps but deals with reconstructions on cancer patients. I went to him because I thought that he would be able to make my breasts look ok after explant..He said that he will do the surgery if I wait another 3 months to make sure it's what I really want. He said that I will not like my breasts after surgery, he will not do a lift because of blood flow to the nipples( he said they could turn black) I that I will just have to except whatever happens after surgery and live with it. My problem is lack of breast tissue due to my first surgery. I was a 34 A/small B before implants but have since had a capsulectomy, I will end up really flat chested but need them out..I do suffer with Chronic fatigue syndrome and have done for several years, flu like symptoms, ache, tiredness like no other + lots of other symptoms.

Is there anyone that can help with the name of a great surgeon in the north west that will do what I want for me and not what they think I should have

Thank you for reading my story [RS bleep]