29, Very Petite, 4 Kids, Need Something for Me Now...

I have been on real self for a couple years now, but this is my first post. I think I am finally (almost) ready to take the leap into feeling more like a woman! I am 29 years old, 4' 11" and 90 lbs. I have always been petite and had very little in the bust region. Before children I was a 34A (probably should have been a 32) then I had a baby, and then another baby and was then a 32AA. I then had another baby and then my last baby (almost 3 years ago now) and am now a 32AAA....yes, that's a real thing. Because I am so petite I don't feel womanly at all. I am very self conscious about my chest. I try to cover it up as much as possible to hide the flatness. I also work at a Men's hair salon, and when you cut Men's hair the one requirement to work there SHOULD BE to have bigger boobs than your clients...fortunately they hired me anyway, lol. I am ready to feel more confident! My husband and I are also going on a dream trip to Hawaii next march for our 10 year anniversary and I would love to fill out a swimsuit top!! I am in search of the perfect doctor right now. I have found a good doctor, but am going to go to one more doctor to see if he will be the one or not. It's such a tough decision for me. I guess I'm pretty picky... sometimes I feel like I shouldn't be, but it's a big deal. I want to look and feel natural and great.

I have always said that I don't want to go too big especially because I have almost no breast tissue and am petite. I want to look as natural as possible. I have consulted with a few doctors and I've always been comfortable at around 234cc mod plus. I think that looks perfect for my frame. But reading about how everyone always wants to go bigger once the newness wears off makes me think I should be a little more brave and go no less than 250cc's. The rice sizes I have on in the picture are 250cc's and I like how they look. I wouldn't be opposed to going a little bigger, but I don't see myself going any bigger than 275cc's. So we'll see...

I have been looking forward to this for quite some time but because of money and time it's been difficult to commit to it and just do it. I'm always wondering if it's the right thing to do even though I really want to do it. Recently I had a sore, lumpy, spot on one of my breasts, and I went to the doctor and they ended up doing an ultrasound and said no cancer. Thank God! But it is still bothering me and I'm trying to track it to see if it's maybe something hormonal, but haven't been able to pinpoint anything specific about when it's hurting. They really didn't tell me what it was when they did the ultrasound, they didn't even really see anything. The radiologist even said something like, "we don't doubt that you have pain" which means they probably think I'm crazy since they didn't see anything. I'm going in to see my doctor on Wednesday to follow up on it and see if she can feel what I feel and see if augmentation is even an option for me since anymore. I don't want to end up getting implants and it hurts that spot even more, you know?.... Just praying everything is clear and can hopefully move on with my surgery in a month or so... :)

I had my Dr. appointment last Wednesday, and she said I should have no issues with implants. The lumpy sore spot is just hormonal and is nothing to worry about! I have a consultation on Wednesday with a ps and am really hoping he's the one. He has great reviews on here so I'm feeling confident and am panning on scheduling my surgery that day. Hoping it all goes well!

That's the day! I met with a ps yesterday and have decided to go with him. He was very informative and knowledgeable and seemed to be on the same page as me as far as size goes and the end result. Couldn't be more nervous or excited! It's so surreal! I tried on sizers...again...and am still leaning toward the same size 234cc. I did try on the 265cc and they were a little big, but may end up going with that...we pick the final size the day of surgery. I scheduled it so soon that I have a lot to get situated in a week. Work, pre-op appointment, money, and my kids...oh boy....I can do this. :)