26 Yo, 5'5", 125lbs, No Kids, Pre-op AA/A, Silicone Submuscular Moderate Profile Implants, 360cc's

I have been completely MIA on here this past month! I am doing great though! Currently I am just shy of two months post-op. I will update on the two month mark in another post on another day. I have a lot of pictures from the past month. I went on a vacation to Florida this past week and it was so much fun and relaxing at the same time. We don't have the greatest weather up here in MN if you haven't heard! lol I can't even explain how amazing it felt to finally feel confident in a bikini. I felt so carefree and liberated when I was at the beach. I've never taken so many pictures in my swimsuit in my entire life. In fact, I bought a total of three different swimsuits for this trip! Oh well, I deserve to after all the years of swimsuit deprivation. The last swimsuit I bought I wore for two years. I just never cared for swimsuit shopping because I was so flat chested. Swimsuit shopping this year was still somewhat stressful but it was a whole hell of a lot more fun than it used to be. Funny story - So my friend and I had just gotten to the beach and found a spot to relax. Shortly after, this older lady (probably in her mid 60s) walks by with her husband. She had HUGE boobs and it was obvious they were fake because she had a teeny, tiny body in comparison. They were also very perky for being an older lady. My friend commented on how she must have had a boob job and said "those are too big." Even the bartender commented after she walked by on how her boobs looked fake. I had to chuckle inside; because here I was, not even two months post-op from my own breast augmentation! My friend does not know I had a breast augmentation. We tell each other a lot, but I guess I just don't feel comfortable at this point divulging my secret. I guess mine look natural for my body and no one would ever suspect I had a breast augmentation. So why tell my secret if no one would suspect?! That's just my opinion. So even though I would still like to go bigger sometime in the future, I'm also glad mine look really natural and not too big for my frame. I wouldn't want my boobs to be the first thing someone notices about me, like that older lady on the beach. But maybe that lady feels amazing with those big boobs. Honestly what's most important is how you feel about your own boobs! I bought my first bra post BA at Target about a month ago. I tried on a bunch of different bras and the 34C just fit me well. I'm not going to go bra shopping for fancy, expensive bras until I am further along in the healing process. At my one month post-op appt, Crystal, one of Dr. Tholen's nurses, told me that my current bra size and size of my breasts isn't really going to change in the future. However, the way my breasts fit into the cups and how comfortable the bra feels could change as time goes on and I continue to drop and fluff. Also, I went to Victorias Secret and tried on a bunch of swimsuits, many that have the push up in them. I didn't care for how they made my boobs look. I wasn't able to achieve much push up/cleavage with them. (My boobs still need to soften more. They aren't very pliable/squeezable so the push-up effect isn't that great). Anyways, I was curious to know what my bra size was, so I asked the sales associate if she could measure me. She asked what bra size I currently wear and I told her 34B because I didn't know what else to say. Well when she got done measuring me (which took like 5 seconds), she declared I was a 34B. I was disappointed to be honest (seems small), but I really don't think she measured me properly. She hardly touched me and didn't have me take my shirt off. I don't know what other women's experiences have been getting measured for a bra at Victorias Secret, but it didn't seem very professional to me. I didn't bother to try on any bras at Victorias Secret that day. I guess I'd be curious to see if the 34B bras actually fit me. I thought I would be a cup size BIGGER in VS bras. Hmm...anyways, so I looked up how to measure myself on barenecessities.com. I came out with a 34C and that's currently what size I am wearing in the bra I bought from Target. It's not too tight or too big. It fits me just right. I certainly don't look like a 34C though. I actually do look more like a B cup. All of my tops (which are mostly size small) still fit me. I've also only bought two bras so far. Well, it's 12:30am and now I'm just rambling. This night owl needs to go to bed! Goodnight everyone! Hope you're all doing well!

This month has gone by so slow, probably because I haven't been working. I don't regret one bit taking a whole month off of work. I feel 99.9% ready to go back, whereas last week I didn't. I can carry heavy bags and not feel pain. I'm still waking up with some stiffness, but it quickly goes away once I start moving around. I don't worry as much about hurting myself if I have to lift patients. FYI, I wouldn't have taken nearly as much time off of work if I had a clinic/low key nursing job.

My boobs still feel pretty immobile. I reaaaally have to squeeze them together to get any sort of cleavage. Even when I tried on push up bras, I didn't really have much cleavage. This really concerns me. I guess my boobs looking so far apart worries me the most at this point and I fear that I will never be able to attain that full cleavage look. Not like I want to have cleavage on an everyday basis (I'm pretty conservative actually), but it would be nice on certain occasions, like when wearing a bikini. I have read things like having cleavage depends on your natural anatomy and for some women they won't have much cleavage even after a BA. My boobs look bigger from certain angles. But sometimes they don't look big at all. Like I said in my above post, I have A LOT of side boob. I tried on a bikini swimsuit with a little bit of molding in the cups to add lift. It didn't fit and just looked weird because my boobs were hanging out the sides. Yet it looked like I had no cleavage! I really hope that my implants move closer together. This whole side boob thing was not the look I'm going for.

I haven't been officially measured yet. But I tried on some 34/36C bras at Target and they fit, although some weren't very comfortable. I tried on a 36B sports bra today and it fit. It seems that I will fit into a C cup but I look more like a B cup. I've heard that commonly about BA boobs - you fit into the cup size bigger than you actually look. I can't remember why that is? If anyone remembers let me know.

Hey ladies. I’ve been spending a little less time on this website. It can seriously consume your life. It’s like the FB for plastic surgery. Haha! I remember when I would be gone nine hours at work, then come home and spend the rest of my day glued to my computer researching breast augmentation information and stalking Realself profiles! Glad those days are over, but now that I’m on the other end, I still look at other women’s profiles to see their progress and research things about breast augmentation. It’s still a time sucker! However, I really enjoy interacting with everyone on here and documenting my journey. I’m glad it’s been helpful for other women. Helping other women by documenting my BA journey is my main goal with my profile. I still worry that others I know will come across my profile and I sometimes think about taking it down because of that fear. But I know how helpful it can be to others, so for now I’m keeping everything up.

So last week, I had my three week post op appointment. At all my post-op appointments thus far, I talked with the RN first, who answered most of the questions I had, then I met with Dr. Tholen. I've had the same nurse at all of my post-op appointments, which has been nice because I get to know her and she gets to know me. I like that there is continuity of care. I was told by Dr. Tholen to stop wearing the compression band at night because my implants have dropped enough (that was good news, because I think it was causing me to break out on my chest and it wasn’t the most comfortable thing to wear.) I was also told to start wearing a regular bra and to do displacement exercises to push my implants to the side, because apparently they could come together too much and I could end up with a uni-boob. Yikes! However, I’m concerned about them being too far apart at this point! I feel like I have A LOT of side boob and no cleavage. My boobs look far apart. I don’t like that at all. I brought my concern up to Dr. Tholen and he reassured me that they would start coming together. I hope!

I was also told at the appt. to begin massaging my scars for five minutes a day with vitamin E oil. Massage is supposed to help flatten and improve the feel and appearance of the scar. I wanted to purchase the pure form of vitamin E, which is D-Alpha Tocopherol. The synthetic version is Dl-Alpha Tocopherol. I’m not sure if it makes THAT much of a difference if you use the pure vs. synthetic form of vitamin E oil, but I’m all about using the least synthetic skincare when possible. It’s like food. Food in its natural state is healthier for you than all the processed junk out there. It’s really weird. I’m into natural health and organic eating, yet I put silicone in my body and now have fake boobs…haha..Okay, so anyway, I ended up ordering Vitamin E Oil By GreatFull Skin off of amazon.com. It was $29.99 for a small bottle (expensive, I know) but to me it was worth it to spend more on a better quality oil that has great reviews. I do the massage at night as part of my bedtime routine. There is no way in hell I would be able to do this consistently in the morning, because when I go back to work I usually have to wake up at 0600 and am rushing to get out the door!

The first couple of times I massaged my scars, I felt little popping sensations (like there were air bubbles) in my scar. It was weird and very unexpected; so if you experience that don’t worry too much, because apparently it’s normal (from what I read online). Once I felt the little “pop” it seemed as though my scar felt flatter. So I guess those little popping sensations are a good thing!

Okay, so about the cell phone BA pics. Yesterday, I had the scare of my life! I lost my cell phone and thought I left it at a public library when checking out books. I hadn’t checked it for hours and then at around midnight I couldn’t find it! Of course it was on silent and not locked! The last place I went was the public library and I remembered setting it on the counter when checking out books. I looked everywhere – my car, under furniture, in my jacket. Soon I was panicking. The thought of someone finding my phone and looking at all the nude pics I had taken made me feel sick and worried. After a long time looking, I decided to check in between the couch cushions once again, and sure enough, my phone was lodged deep in between the cushions! Oh my goodness, what a relief! Overall, it made me realize that losing my phone with all these half naked pictures is a REAL possibility! I have my Find My iPhone app enabled now (which uses GPS to locate your phone if you lose it. With this app you can also make your phone alarm in order to find it as well as lock it or delete it’s info from another device.) I highly recommend having some sort of app like this in case you can’t find your phone and/or it gets stolen. Also, I plan on putting a password on my phone, which I never had before. You never know who could get a hold of your phone and look at your pics. Since I want to document my progress, I will continue to take photos of myself, but now I am going to be more careful about things just in case someone else gets a hold of my phone or I happen to lose it. Something to think about ladies! You don’t want to go through what I went though - thinking about someone looking at all your naked BA pics!