23 Doing Something for Me

So good news and bad news is my labs god returned and everything is normal bad news is my hemo is 10.8 and my surgery is in 3 weeks so i have decided to make an executive decision to just postpone my surgery because i spoke to dr B and he will not operate on you if you hemo is not 12 i can respect that though. so i just don't think its super possible for my hemo to jump to 12 in 2 weeks so i can have my labs redone and faxed. i don't even want to disappoint myself in that way so I'm gonna call and see if i can postpone till end or middle of april. my primary said it will take up to 3 months to go up and if i postpone till end of april it will be just about 3 months at that point for me to get re tested. so yeah heres my update ladies. I was hella bummed but on the bright side everything happens for a reason right. I'm gonna start working out I'm now 170 and i have never in my life weighed this much and I'm super uncomfortable so i honestly want to get back down to 160 before surgery that tends to be my highest in weight and i would feel better. my BMI is only a 27 but hey whatever i rather feel better because i know DR. B will deliver regardless of the weight loss he usually does and I'm not going for to much of a dramatic look anyways.

So hey girls, today i went to get my labs done, my surgical clearance is due feb 20th and my remaining balance. So pretty much I'm as healthy as can be but the only thing I'm kinda nervous about is my hemo. I went to the doctor like 6 months ago just for a check up before i was even sure i wanted surgery and started my process and my hemo was low, like 9.7 low and my doctor told me to start taking iron pills but i didn't because the ones she prescribes make you constipated. I probably should have listened to her advice a while ago then i wouldn't be shitting bricks right now, because i have so far been taking my iron prescribed by DR. B for like a month now and so I'm just waiting on my results they come on the 10th so i can check those online. Okay so this is weird but my primary was telling me that i may be anemic and potentially have something like where some people just can't improve their iron levels and i was like umm that dosent sound right because yes my iron fluctuates but no'one has ever said that before, like my primary hasn't. she tested me for it and I'm hoping thats not the case and i rebuke what she said in the name of jesus because i will be damned if after all this preparation i have to change everything around again in order to get surgery. But if it comes back at at least an 11 i will be happy because i will continue taking my hemo pills and find another way to boost my hemo by 1 point also so i can hit that 12 mark. y'all pray for me because i will be devastated if i can't get surgery because of this. Im not to nervous because i feel like i have been brought all the way to the finish line and i just feel like everything has aligned so well thus far, that it is just meant to be so I'm not trippen i still have the whole month of feb. to get this hemo up so I'm not to worried here. I just have a feeling everything will work out. Im so excited because i ordered a few things to wear for surgery that are big on me because i tend to wear mediums but with the garment i want to be as comfortable as possible while I'm there. I received them already so at this point I'm only waiting on my contour faja wrap around lipo which was recommended by some surgery sisters that look freaking amazing. Also crazy to say this but my dr told me i weighed 169 today i was shook. like i have never in my life weighed this much and i was confused because i don't look that big at all. i hold weight well so yes i have stomach weight but not a lot at all. though i did have on my shoes and stuff so that is potentially off just by a little but on the bright side i got some fat Dr. B can take. since i have gained weight my booty has been getting bigger and bigger lol haha and I'm like damn. I know i will have a great outcome.

So yesterday 1.9.18 the rest of my supplies came in, some I need and others i just wanted for comfort. I bought colace because my dr. does not recommend laxatives, and its a simple stole softener that I heard works really well (TMI) but ladies this may be a life saver for us all. I also got a poppy pillow, lol its cute and i wanted to take it out and sit on it just because it is really freakin big and comfy. I recommend the authentic poppy pillow because it gives you a lift off of surfaces and its really freakin comfortable. (The poppy is for working/home because I plan to leave my bbl pillow in my car since i do drive far to work everyday expect Thursdays and I just don't want to always have to carry that thing every where so I just got both it will come in handy in the future i believe. by the way dr. bbl provides the bbl pillow for you no need to buy seperate. I also bought a pregnancy pillow (Call me extra) but i hate hate hate stomach sleeping I have been trying to practice but honestly it hurts my lower back for some reason so I bought a pregnancy pillow to hopefully bring that extra comfort while I'm laying down. In a recent previous order I got all my vitamins such as arnica tablets (even though my dr provides I got extra just in case), arnica cream 3 bottles because I'm not slacking on the massages when I get back home. and I'm dark skinned but i know i bruise easy on my stomach because when i simply put on my bra it leaves dark marks on my stomach (my stomach, boobs etc are a lighter complexion don't ask why), bromelian (which is suggested in the packet) and extra iron pills for after just in case (like i stated before my iron drops low low), What I picked up from the store was vaseline (all suggested by DR. bbl), Benadryl, bandaids, hmm I'm sorry y'all i can't remember the rest as of now but when I get home I will update a list of everything i got (btw you don't have to get my extras because Im just doing what will be good for me and my body. (we all know our own bodies so just get the things you need and get things you want that will make your recovery easier for you.