In LOVE with my body!!!

Better late than never...

I've been dealing with so much that I've neglected RS and my ladies. Just a quick update, I'm almost 1 month post op (Thursday). I no longer have pain in my butt, my stomach and back are also less sensitive and I can actually feel the sensation returning. I started driving short distances after 2 weeks but for the most part I stay off my butt. I sleep on my sides and stomach still. My butt is very soft on the bottom and softening daily on the top. It giggles when I walk too lol. I know 10 days in I was a lil emotional and going crazy lol but I couldn't be happier with my body. It does seem like Dr. Salas forgot a little area of lipo in my love handle area but besides that I'm happy. I'm thinking about doing laser lipo for that because I feel like you can tell its there even though no one else can see it. This Saturday is going to be my 1st official night out since the surgery and I'm going to be sitting down without support. In nervous but ok with it. I switch between sitting with my boppy behind my back with a rolled yoga mat rolled in a blanket and kneeling down. I have a sling Cain chair that I use at work but I barely sit down because my job is flexible and I lay down almost all day. All and all this experience was worth it. My measurements are at 37-28.5-41. I've been waist training a little bit and it's been good for the most part. Oh and I take off my garment for about an hour a day but the other day I feel asleep without it and prob did have it on a total of 12 hours. I'm still swollen, stomach is looking a mess because of all the fluid that is still there. I haven't gotten a massage in over 2 weeks because I've been extremely busy with working everyday 12 hour days for 2 weeks straight. I'm going to try and post pics later tonight but everything literally still looks the same! Thanks for the support of all those that actually follow my journey! Smooches!

Emotional rollercoaster. 2 words to sum up how I feel. Simply put: I'm not too happy about my results right now. Today I worked an 8 hour shift on my feet the entire time. I was relieved to come home and relax. I decided to wash my garment, take a shower and try some clothes on. I found the tightest of tight dresses and threw them on. (Looking in the mirror) MY ASS LOOKS SO FAKE!!! Im so unsatisfied with my body. I asked for natural but this big ass (literally) looks anything but natural!! I have no hips and a huge ass. Where they do that at? At first I enjoyed my ass but now I wish I would of just did lipo. I'm sure that's what men like but I don't want to be that girl walking around and you can automatically tell I got my ass done. I at least want to keep ppl guessing!! I want to know if there are any procedures you know of ladies that I can do to decrease the size just a bit so it can look more natural? I'm thinking of waist training to bring my waist size down so my non existent hips can be more prominent. Would that work?? I need opinions please!!