25 Years Old, 2 Children, Excited for a Change! - Mexico, MX

So, hey everyone as you all know I was suppose to have surgery today, to finally be happy to finally love myself :( but, it didnt work out for me....I feel so overwhelmed with sorrow. All in one week I went through an Endoscopy, Colonscopy, Tilt test, EEG and Echo test, then find out theres a hole in my heart, so Dr. Mayortena wanted me to get a letter of clearance. So, my doctor said she would. I had already paid for the surgery and already paid the tickets that were $600, non refundable, it was 12am and I head out to go to the airport that was 3 hrs away, but as I was driving I just told myself if this will do more harm then good I lnow God will not let me go, maybe by getting pulled over or? Well 10 minutes into driving there was noone around me, a polce officer comes out of nowhere and pulls me over, he said I was going 73 in a 60 but I wasnt, it was 65. So I knew at that moment God had heard me and I knew it was his sign. So I guess I better figure out why I didnt go.
What God knows I dont. It jas been hard bc I wanted this my whole life and to have to give it up and still have to pay off a loan I never got to use, it stinks. But I have surgery next week to habe a camera in my throat to see how big the hole in my heart is and how much my valve is leaking.
So maybe my heart wouldnt be able to take the sleeve idk why God stopped me from going but he did :( Iam grateful but now hopeless, more years crying in the mirror, having people laugh at me more, remember the past bullies. I just wanted to know what it felt like to feel beautiful (much tears now.) I'll stop ranting now. Wish me luck with my heart I guess. And to all on this journey, i envy you and wish you all the very best in the whole world! Love all of u.

So its almost 8pm, I leave for the airport at 12am. So Its so close. Im nerv-xcited. I prayed and prayed and prayed so please keep me in prayer for safety and no complications. This is a lifetime change forever and I am there so soon. I am hoping for great things. By the grace of God this will happen. I cannot wait to embark on this journey. Im so excited :) Wish me luck everyone :)

Im pretty scared now. Surgery is tommorow. I keep reading and reading. My BMI is 34.5. Im not TOO overweight but... I read of all the complications and of alot of people dying. Is this true? Im so close. Please someone help me out here? I am so nervous.