Grammie is 4 weeks post op & looking for some cyber support from post breast reduction friends

Ok cyber friends I am 4 weeks post op and looking for some advice. Things are going well overall. Healing well. Still swelling issues. Have only tried to go without the CG one day and one evening. Much more comfortable with it. Still lots of swellings in my breasts . Especially on one side. They are rock hard on the sides. And sore sore sore. Tummy looks GREAT. Still lose my stamina so fast, that's makin me crazy. Ordered about 10 bathing suits and struggling with my look. Anyone else look in the mirror at times and wonder whose body that is? I feel like I have lost my curves and now look pear shaped or square. Not the look I was going for. My boobs are so little , I look like a boy in some of these swim suits, and some of my dresses. I was so looking forward to not looking like a [RS bleep] in my bathing suit and actually being able to get in the water without always worrying about falling out. (we live on a lake)But I loved being curvy. I still have side swelling from the lypo so when that goes down maybe it will be better. Crazy , spent my whole life wishing I didn't have to go to the ole lady section or bras and that just once I wanted a matching bra and panty set. Now I am thinking I need push up and padding! Maybe I am just tired of being sore and tired, and want to be back to feel normal. Yesterday example, sent DH off to work after making his breakfast, did the usual house chores, worked a little on two furniture painting projects I have going , got around and drove about 30 min to take 10 year old granddaughter to lunch, stopped in 2 stores (one for me for a gift and toy store for her ;) dropped her off, picked up DH drove 45 min to look at furniture and turned down a wonderful italian dinner in one of my favorite restaurants cause I just didn't feel well, went home, ate a salad in bed and was too tired to even answer emails . That's NOT me! This is nuts. Maybe it's cause its my birthday this week, (14th) but man am I in the dumps. This emotional piece should be gone by now, but crap. I expected to be on cloud 9 by now, lovin my new look. Perhaps I will try one of the "maybe" suits on and post a picture for opinions. Pretty much all are going back.... Sorry ladies, but who else can ya talk to when you have brought this on yourself and you want to say what the heck (#%@$&). Sigh. Maybe today will be better........

PO 23 days
Whew!!! That was a rough week! In general, got up did the morning thing we all do ( dishes, breakfast, lunches, laundry, animals, etc) try to figure out SOMETHING professional to wear, and off to work. By 2-3 I am EXHAUSTED. Drag myself home 5ish, strip out of work clothes and into jammies, throw dinner in the oven on the way to bed, feet up and down for the count. Swell hell, looked like hell by Friday. Not sleeping well. feft good to putter around the house today, put up valentines decorations and ordered a ridiculous number of bathing suits. [Hate trying them on in a store, so this way I can try them on and have my anxiety attack in the privacy of my own home]. In hopes this year will be different. Still have some real emotional days, (today being one) But one day at a time one day at a time, little better and more normal every day. Saw my PS Friday, she took some more spitting stitches out and checked things out. Incision sites look good, she is a bit concerned because I still have so much breast swelling. My TT swelling is much better but my boobs are still SO SORE! She said she doesn't think it's a hematoma but to start massaging and see if that helps.
Gotta tell u I love this site and look forward to reading it EVERYDAY. Keep healing ladies keep healing.!!

17 days PO
One week off, one week working from home and back to the office tomorrow. Several concerns, one being what I am going to wear cause my skin is SO SORE and like everyone else, swelling is an issue. Any other Polly Professionals put there who have figured out how to wear your business clothes with a CG. Tried to go without it a couple of times and was pretty miserable in a couple of hours. My under arms/side boobs are really sore. Does the coconut oil help with the skin sensitivity? Has anyone else found any skin lotion that helps this soreness and sensitivity? I have been wearing my husbands tank t's under my bra an panties. Even pulling my pants up and down is really uncomfortable. Can u tell I am a little anxious about going back?
This site has been such an amazing help and support system for me. I hope my posts have been helpful for someone else as well. I am finding it is going to take me (and my hubby) some time to get used to my new body. DD to a C is a big step. Haven't gotten support from some of our friends (especially my male friends,,, go figure) course they didn't know what they looked like without a big ole support / underwire. Sone I would like to give a 15 plus pound pack and strap it onto their front and carry it around 24/7 for a couple weeks then come talk to me!! :0) As u can see I am kinda blue today. Just part of this journey I guess. I know that intellectually I just feel emotional. Tired of having my wings clipped, being sore, and trying to explain why I decided to do this at 57..... Lordy.
Tomorrow is another day, cyber friends, To you who have your surgery coming, stay strong!! You will br fine. Just prepare prepare prepare! For u who are healing, be good to yourselves!!! I will try to post tomorrow after re-entry to my real STRESSFUL world. (am going to try to post some updated pictures too!)