Young Mother of 2: 5'3 140# 36C Getting TT/MR & 339-371cc BA. Marin, CA

Hello! My husband and I started looking in to a BA for myself earlier in 2014. After multiple consultations with different doctors, including my regular (insurance covered) doctor, it became apparent that having a BA done wouldn't be a wise decision without repairing my weakened stomach. I struggle with lower back soreness and problems from an old disc injury, and am learning that I suffer some other side affects of having diastasis recti. I have spent a lot of time working on my core strength and trying to work and manipulate the muscles back together, with no such luck. As I've learned - if they're far enough apart, they just aren't going back to normal! I am a very active, young (28years) mom - I am very fit and take part in strength training for preventative measures. My husband and I have decided that with me not even being 30 yet and knowing we are done having children, that I deserve to have this procedure, get my body back... and some self confidence!! and be able to resume my old hobbies and activities that I used to take part in, but can't anymore with the side affects I struggle with.
That being said..... I am nervously and excitedly "announcing" that we have booked this procedure for Feb 2015! Growing up being very active, I have had multiple injuries requiring surgery, so I am not SO nervous about that aspect, given that I will be having this done at the same hospital where I have had every single other surgery I've ever had. I am MOST nervous about the boobs! I can't switch them out if I don't like them! Before having children, I was a very perky and comfortable 36D. Now, I am a deflated 36B/C, depending on the bra. I will be having only a BA, no lift, done at the same time as my TT - getting Natrelle Style 15 Silicone implants under the muscle. These are a midrange projection - I will either be getting 339cc or 371cc. We will have both on hand and decide at the time of surgery. I am SO lucky to have the most amazing doctor. I have put my trust in him to make the final call to give me what looks the most natural. My hope is to fill out a 36D again, and balance out my boobs and butt. HA!
I have been browsing around on RealSelf for some time to try to find similars and good tips and tricks. I have made up a little recovery kit already, and I've purchased a front zip bra along with lots of sleep shirts and comfy clothing/zip up sweaters and what not. All of my binders and compression garments will come from my doctor (although I do have spanx on hand).
Also! I was told at my final consultation that I will be getting a pain pump - I am SO excited about that, I thought it wasn't even an option so I hadn't inquired. It seems that the pain pumps can really help with comfort level to help get you up and moving around a bit sooner, so my doctor offered one for this procedure.
Thank you for reading! I am SO excited, nervous, and everything in between.
Uploading pics that were taken earlier in the year, I was about 15# heavier then. I will upload more pics when I find the time to get some. ;-)

Getting everything ready and prepared, making lists and getting super organzied... getting my home and meals for family all organized- I think it's a way for me to ward off the anxiety and nerves. I've completed everything I wanted to complete, except a deep clean of the house, and now I'm left with just myself and my thoughts about the actual procedure. Not nervous about the TT, just hopeful it will solve or relieve some of the problems I deal with daily. But I am SO nervous about the BA.
The last time I purchased bras I was about 20# heavier (the original photos I was about 14# heavier than currently)... and I was a larrrrge 36c small 36d.
I am still wearing my 36d bras even though I'm only filling them out halfway. They're pretty big.
I am scheduled for silicone moderase profile 339cc (left side) and 371cc (right side) and am so nervous they're going to be too big! Based on the measurements from the PS, these were right in the middle of the sizes I could choose.
I am looking to fill out my booby bags and be a full 36d. I think right now I measure a large b small c. Any opinions? I want them to look natural when I'm clothed, but at the same time be big and full enough when I'm not clothed that they're attractive to me again! Basically, I want my cake and I want to eat it too!
part of what feeds the nerves is that with the TT and getting more of a figure and smaller waist again, will this make them look even bigger? I've got some junk in the trunk and it seems a 36d is what makes me look proportional.
So nervous!
photos on my computer, I will upload this afternoon.