Rhinoplasty with Dr. Rizk- 18 years old

So.. I remember back in 7th grade when I was 13 my nose suddenly got waaaay too big for my face, before I was totally happy with the way I looked, never wore makeup, it was all good. In 8th grade I started trying to distract from my nose, getting bangs, wearing poorly applied makeup etc. I admit I looked pretty awful haha. Some days I wouldn't really care about my nose.... thinking that I looked exotic or something (haha I really don't know) and other days I wouldn't even want to leave the house. As the years went by I noticed that my nose stayed the same size as my head grew, eventually it begun to fit my face a little bit more, but still I would have my good days and my bad days.

On top of this, when I was about 15 I finally realized that one side of my mouth (left side of bottom lip) is paralyzed ... in middle and lower school I just thought I didn't know how to smile or open my mouth right lol so I feel that my big nose draws attention to my small mouth and its inability to look completely normal. I've mostly gotten over my mouth dilemma solely because I've gone to 3 doctors and all of them didn't know what the diagnosis was or how to fix it.

So back to the topic of my nose. I'm 18 and going to college in New York this August! I currently live in Louisville, KY but when I searched for plastic surgeons in the area about 2 years ago, I wasn't too fond of their before and afters. I had a consultation in 10th grade where they showed me the result, and it looked very scooped and and didn't fit my facial features. After that I decided to wait a few years to be fully grown (or at least mostly done growing) before I'd research again. During this time, I definitely didn't hate the way I looked but I would still see photos on Facebook where the bad angles or just candid photos would kill my confidence- all I would notice is my big bumpy nasty weird hanging nose; it took the spot light. If I would decide to do the surgery, it would be for no one but myself; I just want to start fresh when I go to college and not be embarrassed of my appearance or be depressed because of something so insignificant. I want to move on.

I literally prayed that Dr. Rizk would have an opening before the start of my school year, and I was so lucky when he called to say that someone had cancelled and July 24th was open... this was back in April. The time went by so slowly, everyday I would watch rhinoplasty diaries on youtube over and over again, read reviews on this site, and google before and afters. And here I am now! 12 days before my surgery and 11 before I fly in to Manhattan. I had a Skype consultation with him back in June, he was very knowledgable and gave me an after that I really liked.... unfortunately I didn't get that after but I have photoshopped some pictures that look similar/ I'll give to him the day before my surgery.

Although I am thrilled that this is finally happening, I really am pretty scared. I mean right now, I just keep imagining the clean operating room with bright lights and walking in there knowing what is about to happen- I'm having open surgery which is grosser in my opinion. I feel like they'll have to give me some really strong anti anxiety meds... otherwise I might have a panic attack. I've never had surgery before. Actually no when the time comes I'll just be so ready to get it over with that I'll hop on the table and say "LETS DO THIS :D" I wish I wish....

Well, I'll post pics soon, I'm on vacation right now but that shouldn't stop me. Basically I have a bulbous tip that I would like refined because I have a very narrow bridge, it almost looks crooked too, which I inherited from my dad. My profile has a large hump and hanging columella (I think I have the terms right...); its very masculine, and very protrusive- once I turned my head and hit my nose on the wall... it always gets in the way haha

I'll keep you guys posted with everything! Sorry I wrote so much.... but thank you for reading :)