47 Years Old, Miss the Hidden Me - Madison, WI

so here we are almost a year after my tummy tuck and 6 months since a lipo and fat graft to my breast and butt and I'm still not happy, Seems as if my muscles were not pulled tight enough, My belly button is to the left of center, I still have lose skin and I really feel a revision is needed, UGH more money? of course, On Oct 20th 2015 I'm getting saline implants in hopes to at least regain the volume I had for about 3 months after the fat graft, I am however happier with my tummy tuck then to still have that tire in front.

It's three months exactly today Post TT and boob lift, and I feel so fat, I feel bloated and just plain horrible, I feel like I'm failing, I have gained 5 lbs but hope to lose this quickly since my husband and I are back at the gym twice a week, I hate my boobs, they looked great when they were swollen, but now all small and smooshy, Above my tummy stitch line I look pregnant, I can tell my muscles are still together, but like there is a air balloon behind it if I don't hold it in and it's hard to breath when I hold it in for a long time, UGH I'm so frustrated right now, I feel like a keg, Will this go away? Will I have even close to what I had expected?

Wow it's been a month already, and it's been one hell of a month. I sent the Hospital bed back just before Thanksgiving and returned to my bed with my husband. It's been somewhat of a challenge to sleep with him and get comfortable. But each day is improving.
My swelling has been up and down, more so later in the day, I usually put my band back on when I can feel it coming on.
I can do some minor yoga cat dog moves which helps the back pain from walking funny for so long.
I can't wait to get back to more of a work out, and OH a bath would be great, lol,
My scars are looking pretty good, still have a few scabs, and one stitch that buried deep,
The dark spots on my breast are clearing up, looks like I'm going to have pink nipples, and if that is the only draw back from it,,,I'm good with that,
I keep looking at myself in the mirror, Still trying to get used to the new body.
I was worried that my husband would not like the smaller boobs,,,but he loves them, mainly because they are perky, and I love them, The don't fall down on the job anymore. I lay flat on my back and admire the hill tops, and smile big.
I laugh because my kids who are grown want to play with them or look at them. I tell them they had their time with them,,,it's mama's turn to enjoy. My grandson likes to play drums on them. I guess they are kid tested and mother approved.
I sit in a chair and look down at my Hoo Ha! I look because I can see it, there is NO belly in the way, Just a straight shot down.
I know this road is just starting,,,but I can't help but want to go shopping, and try on bra's and such, but I have Spring to look forward to.
I have a Doctors appointment on the 5th and I hope I get a Bath ok and workout ok.
I will post photos again soon,