My TT Voyage - Louisville, KY

A year ago I started my journey, a year ago changed my life, my thinking, the way others and I see myself. My thoughts have gone from I love it, to I wish I had made a few changes. In the past year I have grown in so many ways. It is not all about the way I look, but I feel so much better, not having the pannus is such a blessing. I had so many problems with it, and over night they were gone. If you happen to be reading this and are on the fence about having this procedure. Look here on Real Self, I am only one of so many that has made this journey. I no longer have skin crack under my pannus, no more sweating under it. I guess the best of all is the way clothing now fits. I don't have to hide under layers of loose shirts and baggy pants. If you asked me if I would do it all over, I would jump on it and do it with a few changes that I learned after the fact. Have a wonderful day!

It was 11 months ago today that my journey started. I have had my ups and downs as we all do I imagine. Yes I do regret not getting the muscle repair, however, I need to look at the big picture. When I started my journey I wanted no more than to have the pannus taken off. I look back now at my before pictures and its hard to believe that was me less than one year ago. I know most of you end up looking better than I do. However if I look at me now compared to pre tt. It is am amazing transformation. So being that its been 11 months ago today I took some new updated pictures today.

How come I allowed my PS talk me into not having muscle repair? I feel so stupid knowing now what I didn't know then. I should have done more research I think. I love looking here on RS at all the stories and seeing all the before and after pictures. I just wish I had listened to my inner self at the time. I was so scared no one would touch me because of my implants, I settled. OK yes it looks better then before the tt. But I keep thinking if I had the muscle repair maybe I wouldn't have a round upper tummy that sticks out. Maybe I would have a real waistline, even a small one would be great. Sorry but I just needed to vent a little. I can't afford to go back and have the mr now and then even if I could, I don't want to do the whole tt thing all over. I keep thinking if I lose weight that will fix me. In reality, I don't think losing will make a big difference. Yes it would help but I still have this huge gap in my muscles that pokes out every time I use my tummy muscles. Oh well I guess looking at how great you all look is going to have to satisfy me. Anyone have any ideas? Ready to listen here.... Sorry for the venting but we all have our days I guess. You all have a great day and take care of you.