Finally kicked out of the IBTC! - Los Angeles, CA

I'm finally doing it: starting the wheels in motion and taking control of my future!

I've always been super small, and around seventh grade I completely stopped growing. I'm about 5'7" and have stayed between 105-108 lbs and about 10% body fat over the past thirteen years. I'm also Asian, so my ribcage is super tiny and my overall frame is pretty small compared to non-Asian girls around my height. Currently I'm a 32AA but really only fit in soft cup bras because I still get air pockets in regular molded cup AA bras. Booooo.

I always had a complex about my flat chest growing up (didn't help that my mom constantly referred to them as "cheerios" and "mosquito bites"), and at 27 I still have days where I feel totally shitty about them. After I matured a little bit and started losing the baby fat in my face, I felt less like a child, and I would feel a little better on very rare days because I'm one of those annoying people who can compare her body type to models and not feel shitty and fat. Some days I really love how the line of my body looks, but mostly that's when I'm wearing certain things that were cut specifically for a long, lean (but more importantly, FLAT) body type.

My boyfriend loves me and worships my body but he's also a dude and certainly wouldn't mind having a little more to play around with. I'm planning on something comparable to a standard B cup (yeah, I know cup sizing isn't accurate for BA) because of how narrow my frame is, and the fact that I still want to have the look of being slim and modelesque sometimes. Anything larger would just feel vulgar on my body - not that there's anything wrong with glorious large breasts, because trust me, I totally toyed around with the idea of totally going for it and getting the whole stripper package, but that's totally not me and I'm totally okay with just wearing a pushup bra for the days I want to feel like a pornstar.

I'm taking control of my destiny and making the decision to take away my excuses for not feeling freaking amazing about myself 365 days a year. I'm tired of looking like a child and feeling asexual, and I deserve to treat myself to something I've wanted for so very long.

I have a consultation next week and am super excited to officially start this journey, after battling with myself for years over the decision. I'm so ready to ditch my training bras!

I had a little anxiety a few nights ago and gotr unnecessarily upset because my boyfriend and I were being intimate and we started imagining what my new body will look like. He likes proportion and knows they need to be smaller on my frame because of my build, but he still loves big juicy ones (analagous to DDs on me) and the way he was talking made it seem like that's what he was hoping for. I just felt horrible about it because I felt like the ones I want wouldn't even be big enough for him, so how must he really feel about the ones I barely have now?

Well, I showed him pictures a couple days ago and he is 100% in agreement about the size, even though I thought he wanted bigger. He even said that anything bigger would just look silly on me, although there's nothing wrong with big ones - exactly what I was thinking. Thank goodness I picked a good one :)

My current stats are:
5'7"
105-108 lbs
31 bust, 32 AA
23-24 waist
34 hips

After reading a ton of reviews from other women, the thing I'm most concerned about during healing is constipation and bloating. I pride myself on my regularity (ha) and I get anxiety thinking about how stopped-up I will probably feel. My boyfriend had hernia surgery last year and he was horribly constipated for over a week and I can't even handle thinking about it, ugh.