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This is Me. - Los Angeles, CA
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Hi. I’m 24 years old and I have had...
Stephie24June 24, 2014
$13,000
Hi. I’m 24 years old and I have had sub-muscular, saline implants since December 2010. I got them because of severe breast asymmetry. One breast was a sort-of-droopy small C and the other was an –A. My parents’ insurance even paid for most of it. It was an awful trial to find clothes that would hide my asymmetry and rigging bras and bathing suits with large pads. I’m not sure the exact cc’s that were put in, (I’m hoping to get a copy of my file with pre and post photos from my original surgeon soon) but one is much bigger than the other. The bigger breast also got a lollipop lift. Immediately after the surgery I was soooo excited. I thought, “Yes! It’s behind me. Now I can get on with my life.”
Well, looking back over the last four years, I’m not sure much really changed besides losing my clothing issues. I still feel very self-conscious about my breasts. Since the right breast has a bigger implant, it’s much firmer than the left. And even with the different sized implants and the lift, my breasts are still really different, just in different ways. The left is a little scarred from the lift and the right’s fold has lowered a lot.
I still have trouble with physical intimacy because all I can think about is, “Does he notice? Does he care?”
Now I have a new job, lots of friends and even a possible new romantic relationship, but all of that is soured by the feeling that I am fake and the dread of more surgeries in the future. I want so badly to be natural, to not be afraid of getting a full body massage, to do kickboxing again and to love my body. I wish that I had waited until now to consider getting my breasts done. I think it would have made a difference in my self-esteem if I had learned to accept my body as it was.
But what’s done is done and I was happy about the augmentation at the time.
I’ve recently noticed tightness in both breasts that wasn’t there before, like a dull ache. And I have some fibrous tissue in near the nipple area (previously biopsied and found to be benign) that throbs around the time of my menstrual cycle. As if I needed even more reasons to make me worried and nervous about these things inside me.
I’m currently looking into having the implants taken out and then having some fat grafted to the right breast so that even if they are never really symmetrical, at least they will be closer than before. I think if I had just gotten implants because my breasts were tiny, I wouldn’t even consider fat grafting and just get the explant. But I don’t know if I can handle having one droopy breast and one tiny breast again.
I’m trying to keep my expectations low but I would be Over-The-Moon if I could have mostly symmetrical B’s without implants.
If any of you have some advice or recommendations please comment or message me. Thanks.
Well, looking back over the last four years, I’m not sure much really changed besides losing my clothing issues. I still feel very self-conscious about my breasts. Since the right breast has a bigger implant, it’s much firmer than the left. And even with the different sized implants and the lift, my breasts are still really different, just in different ways. The left is a little scarred from the lift and the right’s fold has lowered a lot.
I still have trouble with physical intimacy because all I can think about is, “Does he notice? Does he care?”
Now I have a new job, lots of friends and even a possible new romantic relationship, but all of that is soured by the feeling that I am fake and the dread of more surgeries in the future. I want so badly to be natural, to not be afraid of getting a full body massage, to do kickboxing again and to love my body. I wish that I had waited until now to consider getting my breasts done. I think it would have made a difference in my self-esteem if I had learned to accept my body as it was.
But what’s done is done and I was happy about the augmentation at the time.
I’ve recently noticed tightness in both breasts that wasn’t there before, like a dull ache. And I have some fibrous tissue in near the nipple area (previously biopsied and found to be benign) that throbs around the time of my menstrual cycle. As if I needed even more reasons to make me worried and nervous about these things inside me.
I’m currently looking into having the implants taken out and then having some fat grafted to the right breast so that even if they are never really symmetrical, at least they will be closer than before. I think if I had just gotten implants because my breasts were tiny, I wouldn’t even consider fat grafting and just get the explant. But I don’t know if I can handle having one droopy breast and one tiny breast again.
I’m trying to keep my expectations low but I would be Over-The-Moon if I could have mostly symmetrical B’s without implants.
If any of you have some advice or recommendations please comment or message me. Thanks.
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