43 Years Old with Asymmetry Pre Ba, 13 Year Old Silicone Implants Coming out Next Week!

I feel like I want to pipe in because of my asymmetry. I wish there were more reviews about that. I was an "aa" (left) and a "b" tubular (right) before, and after failing with Brava I decided to get a BA with a lift on one side. I only wanted to be a large B or small C but at the last minute I said a D would be ok because I was worried they wouldn't "drop" enough if they were too small, also I have a large frame so I thought they would be in balance. So I ended up with a 36DD, ugh. 300cc's on the right and 450cc's on the left. When I first saw the "after" Polaroid in my PS's hand I was sure it was from a different body, these were [RS bleep] boobs! But they were mine and I have spent the last 13 years trying to accept them and work with them. I have only about 5 shirts I sort of feel comfortable in but of course I look matronly because they tent out, and I don't feel that my waist is small enough to wear form fitting clothes. I'm really short waisted too so my boobs take up my whole torso. I breast fed one baby and have put on 20lbs since the surgery so hopefully my boobs will be a little fuller after explanting. Looking at my mammogram I think there definitely is more tissue. I'll still be lopsided of course but my plan is if I just can't stand them I will get the bigger one reduced at a later date, or maybe, maybe I will put in smaller implants later. But I doubt I will do that because I know my body and they are going to sit high on my chest and not get the lower fullness I want. The surgery is next week!! I have a lot going on in my life and I'm only giving myself about 3 days to recuperate so I really hope I don't have to get a capsulectomy because I heard the recovery is much worse. I'm really looking forward to feeling smaller and lighter and less bulky and being able to wear a lot more of the styles that I like and I can't wait to be able to walk out the door in a yoga tank top with a built in bra. With these DD's any padding or built in bra just makes me look so slutty! I'm so excited to be able to hug properly and know I feel soft, to be able to buy things in the right size, not all XL's to accommodate my breasts, to be able to do exercises that use my chest muscles and not have to feel the constricted feeling across my breasts. I have a feeling I am going to look pretty bad, floppy and deflated on the right and totally malformed on the left, but every single person here has looked better in clothes in their after pictures, maybe not out of clothes but in clothes they all look younger and more athletic/healthy/thin. And 99% of the people we know see us in clothes and the only people who see us naked are our very closest family and hopefully they will be able to overlook our imperfections. Here I am going on and on about looks, I am very happy and lucky that I haven't had some of them illnesses other people have had with breast implants. I thank my lucky stars for that! Oh and PS I'm with Kaiser and this is covered by my insurance yayyyyy!!

The surgery went well! The doctor didn't need to do a capsulectomy because the implants slid right out. I got to see them and they still looked new after 13 years! I was only out for about 45 minutes. When I woke up I was feeling alert and happy, as opposed to when I had the surgery 13 years ago and I woke up crying. Probably was a different cocktail of drugs today. I have full range of motion with my arms and chest muscles which is a huge relief!! The pain is minimal. I cooked dinner and gave my little one a bath and put her to bed! I'm taking the hydrocodone just because I can and it makes me more comfortable and restful. They said to not lift my arms above my head but I feel absolutely fine to, but I'll take their advice. Anyway here are some photos. The first one isn't of me, it's a picture from a girl on here that I thought I looked a little bit like, and I thought that her photo would be the best I could hope for for myself. The second photo is me just a few hours after the surgery and I think I do look somewhat like her, not quite as good but a lot better than I could have.

Just wanted to share some more photos (I couldn't resist peaking!). I wish I had my before BA pictures from 13 years ago but I'll tell you I didn't have much more than a nipple and a TINY amount of breast tissue on the smaller breast, and I am over the moon that I have more tissue now. I think with breast feeding, weight gain and having implants I have gained some size on that little guy. Hope it's not all swelling. I love, love, love my flat upper chest, I have felt so wide and bulky up there for 13 years now and it feels good to be down to the rib cage!! Ok off I go to watch Grace and Frankie on Netflix!