Finally Getting Rid of This Silicone!
I created a review yesterday but it did not get...
Surgery pushed to January 2017
So here is a pic, it's the best I angle I can take on my own ( my bad).. anyway, u can see the purplish discoloration in the middle.. the lump is invisible ( since it's attached to my muscle) please don't mind my panty lines. I'll keep y'all posted! Pray for me!
So far so good, the nurses here rock! Ready for surgery which is scheduled for tom. Morning! Lord please watch over me, and others that really need you. Please grant those who are afraid and depressed, mental Peace, and fill their hearts with love, & faith. Please tell your daughters that they'll be ok. In Jesus name, amen.
Got out about 1 hr ago, surgery went well.. thank you Lord! I'm in so much pain though.. ladies this surgery is NO joke , u must b ready , spiritually, physically & MENTALLY. Prepare yourself by praying & asking our father for strength! Unable to take pics since I could barely move my rear, will post soon as I can. Thank you God, thank you Dr. T for being so compassionate!
First Pls excuse my typos, I see last night I posted question marks at the end of my update (blame meds) But anyway, I've been debating on whether to post a pic today, I wasn't expecting to have so much removed since I had one session of shots.. .then I thought to myself, am I being vain? Because that's what got me here in the first place! I'll reiterate the fact that you must mentally & spiritually PREPARE for this. If all you are thinking is "how am I going to look after" you ARE NOT ready. Dig deep, do some soul searching, pray to our loving father so he can give you the courage to move forward.. *WARNING* if you are not ready! You will be severely depressed!!! This will take Time, so get your mind & soul right first! but remember! The more you wait, the worst the outcome.. that's why I say Pray!!! It works for me & it will work for you!!! Just please have faith.. NOT having faith is like trying to drive a car w/o gas! OK so I currently have one cut/slash on each cheek, the doc will be going back in tom. To remove what's left.. the pics are disturbing but remember the wounds are NOT sealed, there's dry blood and I also have plastic covering the drains.. God willing tomorrow, The doc will seal me up.. I have two dents on each side ( that's where the silicone was attached) they removed all of the dead tissue ( which caused discoloration) but saved all of my MUSCLE (which I thought was damaged).. the large hard rock in booty is gone! I'm having throbbing pains in butt area and lower back. I'm glad I had it done this way ( butt slash) because I can't imagine worst lower back pain than this. Last night I was in full tears, slept 1 hr from the discomfort. The doc prescribed same meds they give to cancer patients & I could still feel the pain..
thankfully it's not as bad right now.. the med is so strong that it made me nauseous, sweats, even vomit.. doc switched me over to another med, which will help I'll rcv today at 9, Tylenol through IV ( which is fine) why take something so strong if you're still going to feel the pain? I have to accept that I'll be in pain, w/ or w/o meds. For a bit.. This procedure is a difficult one. Currently on vacs & not draining much ( says the nurse) so hopefully I'll be sealed after surgery tom.
My day: cali mom stopped by & brought me flowers, and many goodies! We even walked the halls, I was able to walk before 24 hours AFTER my surgery.. Doesn't that speak volumes? Thanks cali mom! It's because of you I found dr. Tanovic s/o to another real self girl that is here! You're doing great sweetheart! Hang in there! God got you!!!
sooooo for the ladies that want to know, how long for bbl, u must wait 3-4 months, the booty must be soft like jello & fully healed so the fat from bbl will stay alive.. For those of you going though this, like Tupac once said "keep your head up" .. Hold & be strong" I will continue to keep you all posted! Feel free to drop private message ( if your embarrassed) I was once there, it's going to be ok.. remember Health comes first! And you are not the only one... as the days go by the numbers are astonishingly growing by the MINUTE.. Special shout out to some awesome nurses, Johnathan, Suzie, Claire, there are a few more, but I can't remember their names!
Ok ladies, will continue to keep you posted! Sending blessings your way!
I wanted to share this powerful script that is helping me get through this:
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.
God bless u my sisters.
I spoke to dr. T, and she took her time & explained that my case was actually worse than We thought.. the silicone was injected directly into my muscle.. BUT ( thankfully) ????I caught just in time before it traveled to my thighs. However, she did remove muscle ( & tissue) I must of misunderstood hamid ( her assistant) yesterday ( blame meds) . I go back in at 8pm today, he did say it looks "healthy" this morning, but they won't know until they go back in tonight! God got me! I'm in great hands!
what is it w/ the questions marks after my posts?
Is it the i7? Or is it me? Smh! 2 more hours till surgery & counting
Awesome nurse! Thank you!
Today I met Deborah, I'm telling y'all, God sends you angels when needed!
Another update/ today
So I was told that I'm lucky I didn't die on that table, the silicone was injected so deep into muscle that I could have had a convulsion which could have lead to death. I'm so thankful. Lord have mercy. God is so good to me.
Out of second surgery
Ouch, throbbing pains after walks
I never realized having 0 tolerance for pain.. Lord have mercy, thankfully the meds are helping Manage it. Hamid said my rear looks healthy, it's healing nice.. no bruising? Isn't that something?Amen.
I'm waiting to see the dynamic duo ( for f/u) later on today. Want to see what these incisions look like ,
A message from our loving father
for those of you following my journey, just this past Thursday i shared one of my favorite script, Joshua 1:9 .. on Saturday my friend delivered a message from God, see this bracelet? Amazing.. Proof that God is w/us.. I love you Lord Jesus & I know you love me! Please continue to watch over all of your daughters who are currently struggling w/ this. Please Continue to give us hope & faith.
Told you so..
Drains, what a pain!
Things you'll need @ home
Toilet seat riser ( not everyone will need this ) some ladies are able to sit after surgery.
regular size pillows ( 3-4)
Large body pillow
Female urinal ( hospital has these)
Upper body strength ( a must)
Straws ( to make drinking easier)
Women's padded brief ( u can find on Amazon) & can wear these after surgery, or a faja.. these seem to be more comfortable than a faja panty ( imo).
Also, While in hospital I realized, if u Place two pillows, T style , while laying on them, it will help release pressure from lower back area ( very helpful) don't forget a robe & slippers.. you'll want to be comfy after surgery. The docs will make u walk to prevent blood clots.
If I come across anything else, I will def share..
Nightmare in Boston
How unclog drains
Gently squeeze the tubing where the clot is, to loosen it.
Grip the drain with the fingers of one hand, close to where it comes out of your body.
With the fingers of your other hand, squeeze down the length of the tube. Start where it comes out of your body and move toward the drainage bulb. This is called "stripping" the drain.
Release your fingers from the end of the drain where it comes out of your body and then release the end near the bulb.
You might find it easier to strip the drain if you put lotion or hand cleanser on your hands. ( I used purel sanitizer) helps it glide
You actually get to hear a light flushing sound once it clears
Please note* You might do this up to two times ( or more) per day .. if you're lucky, less.
Yanked a stitch by mistake!
On the road to healing
Finally able to drive
Good to go!
RESCHEDULED DUE TO SNOW STORM
Day 3 post update
Well thankfully today I'm not having as much pain as yesterday. Thank God! I also realized that I should of purchased and xl salomone faja. The large i have is tiny, not to mention I'm a truly a size M. The faja material is sturdy but they run very small, so if you're going to buy one, Order two sizes up. I'm still swollen since it's only day 3. I plan to go bk to work later this week, most likely part time for the first few days. God willing...
Better days ahead
3 week post reconstruction bbl
Feeling better these days, very thankful, taking it one day at a time. I know some of you have been waiting patiently to see the infamous bbl reconstruction pics.. so here is A pic, tbh I see do not see much of a difference, I've been using cocoa butter along with bio oil for the scars.. hopefully they'll lighten up, God willing. I currently have a large lump on my stomach ( under belly button) from bbl, I've been trying to rub it out, ouch.. I do not think I will have another bbl, too painful.. and by the looks of it, I might need 2-3 more bbls in order to fit my jeans properly.. a lot of the bbl fat dissolves. Even with the faja, remember this isn't an average bbl..
unfortunately I still have sunken areas, which were expected due to muscle removal. But dang! I did expect more fullness.. welp.. My scars also look longer than before the revision, about 2-3 inches longer. *blank stare* I now see why girls never post "after pics" , because there's really not much of a difference after the first bbl.. I'll be following up with another surgeon, once I heal.
I Thank the Lord for giving me the strength and patience to handle this situation. When able, I will start to work out whatever is leftover back there .. Lord have mercy.. this hasn't been easy, but nothing is too difficult when you BELIEVE and know that our loving father will always take care of you.. this experience has been very traumatic.. and if I wasn't mentally and spiritually ready, I'd be one depressed soul..
I came across a story on social network the other day and it's sad to say but girls still want shots! with all this info out there! The madness must stop!
I pray for girls who want to get injections, Lord please reach out to them and change their way of thinking..
This is nothing to play with, forget what society wants you to look like, they will not be the ones paying with their LIFE..
SAY NO TO DR. TANOVIC
For those girls who are depressed, unhappy, feeling insecure, please dig deep down, by taking a deep breath, please know that you are beautiful, one day this scarred up body that once had poison in it, will become new again, I believe. You should too. This world sucks, vanity, tears and pain belong to this world, but we belong to JESUS, and he will help us GET THROUGH THIS.. God bless you all, stay strong.
My first bill
Antibiotic for Lymph nodes