22year Old 1 Baby Boy. Implains Need to Be Removed ASAP. London, GB

I would like to start by saying Thankyou to all the ladies on here that have wrote there story it has helped me so much. I recently got breast implains 275cc. The biggest mistake ever. Before I had my son I was a 32dd after I went down to a 32b after surgery I went to a 32d. I wasnt happy at all I though having surgery was the only way it's all I every spoke about I was so happy when I booked the day it's all I wanted. My mum and my partner told me not to do it but I wouldn't listen I though I knew what was best for my body. Little did I know they were right all along. I never though I was end up like this. The day of my surgery I was so excited I went by my self and did it when I woke up from general anestic it was the worse I've ever felt I couldn't open my eyes I felt so sick I didn't even know they were putting drains in me no1 informed me about it. As soon as I got home I knew I did the biggest mistake ever. I regret it so much I am now 4weeks post opp and all I do is cry I can't take care of my son probably I still can't go back to work I've gone into a deep depression. I was also I heavy smoker and my pc told me I can smoke 6weeks after my opp no problem. Now is telling me if I smoke I will get cc. Everything she told me before my opp she is changing everything she said now. This is just a mess it's like Im having a nightmare that I can't wake up from. Wish I never made this mistake :( just want to be me again I want my small boobs back I want to go back being a good mum again I just want my life back.

Today has been one of the worst days since I've had these plastic things in me. All I do is cry and cry I can't take it out of my head how stupid I was if only I could go back in time and stop my self doing this big mistake. I'm so scared of having another surgery my main problem is the anestic and so scared about what I might look like after before I done this to my self I had a little bit of saggy boobs I breast fead my son for 7moths so I'm so scared they will look even worse. What keeps on going though my head is if something happens when I take them out if I get ill, if this mistake is going to be there for the rest of my life. If my boobs will have a problem after. I'm so scared words can't describe how I'm feeling right now. There so unconfertuble it hurts when I sleep on my side it hurts when I pick up my son or hug him. And don't get me started when I try and run after my son on how much they hurt. The worst is when I have a nice dream that I have no implains and I wake up with such a big smile on my face then I look down and see them. This has messed with me so much that I'm even dreaming about it. Worst mistake of my life I just hope and pray when I take them out my boobs will look like before and I will not get ill because of this biggest mistake of my life. Just want to be me and be a good mum to my son without crying all the time :( just want to be me again.