A Means to an End - Sydney, AU

To my dearest ladies and gents,
It's been so long! I have to admit i've tried to write again for you before but each time i was feeling insecure and all the memories of going through my reduction flooded back. They were fond but i had a lot of things in my life happen around christmas time and the new year of 2014, 6 months after my reduction.
Breaking up with my ex, moving to another area which i then moved out of because i had a bad landlord, and a string of small events along the way have kept me busy for quite a while, but i missed you all and the support, your words & comfort, your comments and your own stories. What you shared with me in that time of my life i will be forever grateful for, it makes me smile. Realself was the best thing i had at the time of my reduction it gave me a purpose as i went through all the healing and the feelings, scares and doubts of my surgery.
So as we come towards the new year again it has been 4 and a half years since my reduction!
I spoke to my surgeon but as of yet have not wanted to get a revision on my scars i have a deep love of them.
What have i achieved in my time AWOL?
Well i have completed a qualification in Diversional Therapy (which i received my certificate for just last week!), i have also taught myself to sew using the machine i had carried around for years and have been experimenting with making my own clothes because shop sizes are bogas! (I've been researching bras and swimwear making too).
In the past few weeks i have picked up a handy woman sort of urge as well and have been doing some DIY.
Ohhh. Some things i have suffered with for a good 5-6yrs have gotten answers too. I was tested and came back positive for insulin resistance (my family has diabetes history i was not aware of) so the weight gain i couldnt understand and couldnt lose was because my body wasnt breaking down any of the sugar in all the food i ate. I've had to say bye bye to a LOT of food including carbs, sugar and about half of any fat in all foods that i can and have been given a goal of 20kgs to lose by my doctor.
I've lost 10kgs so far and am halfway as you can see by my pictures but the more i lose the harder it gets :D
If any of you feel the need to pee a lot, are gaining weight no matter what you do or try especially around your belly then i urge you to ask your doctor about a test for insulin resistance, i didn't even know it could be hereditary and found out a year later than i could have (someone missed it on my tests the year before) so i ended up having an extra 10kgs to lose than i could have! yay! not.
I don't know if i want to go back for a revision at all to be honest.. In the end i feel like my nipples ended up higher than i would have liked but i don't wear low cut tops anyway it isn't my style and i know i always have the option to go back one day if i did want to follow that path but i really do love what i have now and who it has given me the chance to become. I don't sit and cry because i have nothing to cover my chest and i can find clothes that fit my torso these days, it has changed my life completely. I think i went to underwire bras for about a year then i went back to the crop top stretchy ones i wore after the compression bra was off, i still absolutely hate underwire and can find no reason i should need to wear it.
Side note: My sister listened to my story and went for a reduction of her own and is also happy with what she has today i think its been about 1-2yrs since she had her surgery as well now. :')
I miss you all and your support and i hope the years and the surgery has left you all so happy, and to those who chose not to have the surgery, if you found ways to cope with the burden of what you have and you love yourself, that is all that matters.
Love and support to you all,
Moondie.

Hi ladies,

I was going to apologise for not being on but ive been busy with a business course and have assignments coming out the wazoo!
So ill say i miss you all instead and see your profiles updated through email all the time.

I left off last talking about gaining some sensation back in my right nipple and its still there.
Ive been using my Scaraway sheets for maybe a month and a half now with a noticeable difference especially in the very thick scar on my right side of boob and upper part of that nipple circle.
Im itchy a lot still which means I'm still healing but have no spitting stitches or open holes anywhere and haven't since the last stitch post i wrote.
I get sharp pain if i twist too far or too quickly due to all the layers of stitching beneath the skin and get tender sore breasts a lot due to only having a base of gland tissue and very minimal fat (i always was glandular in the chest but bigger meant least feeling overall).
I get pain between my shoulders sometimes because I'm so accustomed to stooping so my chest didn't stick out but am working at bettering my posture.
I still cant sleep on my stomach but i can lay on it for a minute or so before the soreness kicks in.

The thing thats been hardest is spending so much money on scar sheets even when im buying mine new on ebay in advance. They are ridiculously expensive and there are no no-name brands that cater to this area of health for the financially unable. Ive spent my tax money this year to buy afew boxes in advance but even when i only use 4 sheets for the two side scars and across the nipples the sheets only last a week and a half being over-used so a box that states 2 month supply lasts only 3 weeks for me using the 8 sheets in that time.
So its costing me at least $60 every 6 weeks maybe more.

Its coming to summer so creams are not an option and ive only just gotten rid of most of a large breakout across the chest due to Palmers Coco butter. (Good product i just have sensitive skin)

Im enjoying going braless with just my tape on in this weather and find for swimwear i still favour shoulder straps instead of halters against my neck.
Im wearing a bra for up to 10hours a day but take it off any chance i get.

Hope everyone is well and healing beautifully.
I added some new photos for you all :)

Well ladies im sorry as always for the lengths between my updates i promised myself i wouldnt turn this review into my diary and only make it relevant and straight to the point for those wanting answers.

So i give you a review today with mixed emotions and buckets of irony.
I was resigned and comfortable to think i will not regain feeling in my nipple (the right one) and kind of wished i didnt have feeling in them both due to how sensitive the left one is (i dont like the feeling when nipples are touched) but today:
Week 10 and 2 days i brushed the right nipple and i felt it. Haha.

Im ecstatic that they both have some sort of feeling but it shocks me because i was unprepared for the change to matter to me.

I just want to let anyone know who it may upset to lose feeling that some nerves can take up to two years to reconnect and if you are not ignorant to reality and that you are perfectly aware that a breast reduction may reduce or lose you your nerves then there is nothing wrong with being positive and hoping that you may regain them.

10 weeks and 2 days since my BR that i got sensation back in the nipple that has been numb and i really did not believe i would gain any sensation at all.
Be hopeful ladies i want nothing more from this situation than to lighten the blues for anyone with whom this matters.

Take care :)