I want my tattoos gone

I just got finished with my 6th treatment. I really haven’t seen much progress these past couple times...and i find it really odd that it doesn’t hurt at all anymore? Is it normal to barely feel anything? In the beginning it was really painful, now i can barely tell she’s doing it....not to mention hardly any results. I just feel there’s something sketchy about her anyways. I am questioning whether or not she’s actually tryin to remove my tattoo or just wanting to get more money out of me. Have any of you experienced this? Also, i have never had a blister or anything. I see some of y’all a looking super gnarly and mine are barely red aftwards...

Today I got a sudden boost of conficence and decided to keep my tattoo and just add to it. Make it more "pretty". I have the perfect idea and I "think" I'll love it when I get it done. Buuuuut I also most days want to be tattoo free. Or at least the one on my shoulder. I'm so self contious of it. I can't figure out if it's a) bc I'm not used to it b) I feel like it's too small and needs more sort feel it looks silly and maybe adding more to it will help me love it. Or c) I'm just not confident enough to be tattooed to be "different" and stand out. I don't like extra attention. I feel like I'm crazy. This whole experience has shown me a side of myself I e never seen before. Like I just wore a sweater over a cute dress to a birthday party in 90 degree weath bc It was strapless dress and I didn't want to show my tattoo. I hide it 24/7. I'm embarrassed of it and I don't know why? I'm so terrified to add to it bc if I decide I want to remove it then that'll prolong the process.....pics are my ideas of making it Prettier.

Hello!!
I got my first tattoo when I was 18yo, 7 years ago. It was a small cross on the back of my neck and it was a matching tattoo with my best friend at the time. Even though it was was visible a when my hair was up, I still liked it. Since then I've gotten, 4 more tattoos. It wasn't until I got the one on my shoulder that I started feeling deep regret. & started to hate all of my tattoos. I have lots of friends who are tattooed all over, I see many women who are tattooed and I think they're beautiful and I always wanted to be tattooed too. Well, at least I thought. I felt immediate regret after the one on my shoulder( upper arm). It's beautiful, original and unique. It's excellent work, so I haven't touched it yet but I am needing advice. I have started the process of removing my first (cross on the back of my neck), and pacmen ghost (on my collarbone area). I'm on my third session with Qswitch Plus C laser so far with decent results. I think once they're gone I may start to remove the one on my arm. I'm just afraid of ruining really good work and maybe I just need to get over it or even maybe add to it? I have days where I want to be completely tattoo free, I feel they take away from me. I'm a mom of two and just don't feel like that "me". Then I have days where I think, maybe I just need to accept them as a part of me and continue with more. But I'm also terrified to add anything else on my body bc i feel I'll regret that even more and have ever more to remove.