Now or Never - Indianapolis, IN

Went to my 1 year post op appointment this week. it has actually been 1 year 1 month. So I asked about the slight double bubble. She acknowledged it and said that its a risk with someone who has my anatomy. The only way to avoid it would be to use smaller implants and any smaller it wouldn't have been worth the trouble. I asked if ( in the future) if I exchanged Them for bigger implants would it stretch /smooth them out. She doesn't recommend that, it could make the problem worse. So I do not want another surgery any time in the near future, so its so slight that, I'm not going to do anything right now or maybe never. She seems to think that my implants will last my lifetime :) So I feel back to normal and flat chested is a vague memory :)This experience has been a rollercoaster of emotions for sure, am I glad I did it... YEP

so here I am 1 year later. I waiting to see my dr soon for 1 yr follow up. this has been a tough journey for me. I had such a long wait and struggled with the decision to have the surgery. I realized that I may have had many risk factors associated with the double bubble deformity But, I took the risk, because I hated the fact that I didn't full out a 32a. I regret to report that I now see a double bubble on both breasts. granted it's not sever but, I can see my natural breast sitting on top of the implants. u am trying to decide if I can live with it or do I want to explore options to fix it and Am I willing to put my life on hold again for the recovery, and risk god forbid it might be worse! I'm do tired of worring about my boobs! I didn't post pics because, I didn't want to share my disappointment but, I think this site needs to be "real" Not every ba gets us the boobs of our dreams:(

I just lost a long updated! Grrrr. Maybe that's not such a bad thing :) Well lets see I tried to wait until the 6 month mark to post. Not a lot has changed appearance wise. I think except I was concerned about the shape for awhile. I think I was flirting with the dreaded double bubble but I think its straightened out. I'm not crazy about the smaller implant "250" on the left, looks smaller. I believe the ps rational was to even out my asymestry (even nipples?) because I didn't notice it before, She said my right side was smaller and now my left side is smaller, how is that better? Emotionally I have went through a lot of changes. I went through boob greed, for sure. Because for all the time and money I don't know if it has made that much difference. But then I remind myself of what my original goal was, modest increase perky boobs. I think for what I had to work with I probably got the best possible outcome. I am very round ( no fluffing) here. The ps tells me I had very little skin in the lower pole so I'm sure that that is the reason why. I think they look pretty fake, but the only people who are going to see them knows they're fake :) So no biggy. So I cant help but wonder if I should have went bigger. My ps had to lower my crease for 250/275, so I'm sure the crease would have had to be even lower. Not sure I would have liked that, now, I feel like they sit a bit low anyway .My hubs says I'm boob obsessed. I can't disagree. Perhaps I'm looking/wanting perfection? I try to remind myself that they're better than they were, and its ok if they aren't perfect. But sure is a lot of money not to get perfect! ha! On a good note, I'm thankful for no complications and a relatively uneventful recovery. It's taking some time to get back to my old self though. My workouts have suffered. but I am more comfortable now but anything that flexes my pecs still feels odd. Not bad but strange. So I can wear #32d in VS 34c most other bras. This surprises me. I was so thrilled I was out of the A dept, that I bought a ton of bras! Now Im Not sure that was a good idea, because I noticed lately that the 32D VS seem slightly loose in the cups...... Sure hope I'm not going to get smaller! I waited 6 weeks to buy bras. So I suppose if I land on a C cup that's pretty good :) I have thought about maybe a revision down the road but I hate the thought of going down the recovery road again! And the money! So I figure nothing lasts forever, who knows maybe I will need a revision at some point, I can live with my results now :) Thank you for reading! :)