Silicone Breast Implant Removal with Breast Lift (Reduction)

I have waited till the last minute to post this as my surgery is tomorrow! I spent the last two years reading everything on here, particular stories about breast explants. I have to thank all the brave ladies who have paved the way for me by posting their stories here. I have wanted to get rid of these things for a long time and now the time is here! My implants are silicone, under the muscle, and 30 years old. Yes, you read that right - 30 years old! I do not know if they are intact, but from everything I've heard and read, it's probably unlikely. My story began 30 years ago... I was always slim and had nicely shaped breasts that were not large and not small. I NEVER wanted to have large breasts and was perfectly happy with my size. I had a baby and after my pregnancy I was lucky to have my body bounce back to my pre-pregnancy weight. I continued breastfeeding until my son weened himself at 12 months. About 6 months after stopping the breastfeeding, my husband (who I later divorced) told me my breasts were ugly and that he was no longer attracted to me. I was devastated and at the time, not believing in divorce, I impulsively looked in the yellow pages for a plastic surgeon and went to him for a "lift". I didn't even interview any other surgeon, but just went to the first one (how naive I was). I was only 21 at the time so I have to be gentle with my young self.
Anyway... the surgeon told me that it was impossible to lift my breasts and that I wouldn't be happy and he wouldn't do it and he pushed me into a very small implant. I can only shake my head at how silly I was to just accept that, but at the time, I believed he "must know" the right thing for me. Between him and my husband, I reluctantly walked down the implant path. I was horrified when I woke up to large breasts. I do not remember the size he put in but I do remember how from that day forward until now, I was ashamed of these big breasts that I never wanted. I never felt like myself with these stupid things inside of me. When the silicone lawsuit came up, I would have received $10,000 from what I was told, but I excluded myself as a punishment to myself for getting the damn things. Idiotic I know! Fast forward to me realizing my husband was not a good guy and I divorced him after 10 years of trying to make it work (more punishing myself). After he was gone, I was still stuck with these stupid implants I never wanted. I only have ever told 3 people (aside from doctors) that I have them - one of my sisters, my Mom and my new husband. After my divorce, I had two long term relationships and neither of them knew I had implants. That's one thing about them being under the muscle - they were hidden but my breasts were still too big. I never told anyone because I was truly ashamed. About 2 years after getting the implants I developed thyroid issues and gained a little weight - over the next 20 years I gained and lost a bunch and my thyroid issue got worse. Unfortunately I haven't been slim for a long while. Although I've been gluten free, night-shade free, dairy free and no wheat, pasta ,etc. for 3 months I lost no weight. I had hoped to lose about 20 pounds before the surgery...but that did not happen. I still decided to press forward.
I hope with my explantation that perhaps some of my thyroid issues will be alleviated. Because my breasts are so large a simple explantation with lift was not possible, I need a full breast reduction. Cross your fingers for me.

For some reason I wasn't even nervous or anxious before my procedure. I kept waiting for the anxiety to kick in but it never did. I trust Dr. Doezie. He was very precise as he measured me and marked me up before the surgery. He is also a very kind man. Here I am ready to get these things out! Smaller boobs here I come! I asked Dr. Doezie to take pics of my implants. I'm curious if they're leaking. I'll post those when I get them.

I am in pain but it's not unbearable. I will sleep in a new recliner bought just for this operation. I am excited as I look down at my much smaller chest. I now have to wait for the unveiling. I think the drains will be removed on Friday so I'll probably see them then. I am very pleased with the Surgery Center, Dr. Doezie and the surgical nurses. Everything was run very efficiently. I ended up with drains. According to my husband Dr. Doezie told him one of my implants was leaking and one was intact. I will post the pics when I get them (hopefully Dr. Doezie remembered to take them!).