Almost a year post-op. What a roller coaster. New pics.

I'm 39, and have an 18 year old son. Breast fed for a short time, he just wouldn't do it. I have wanted boobs since the sixth grade when I saw a girl in my class bend over an didn't have a shirt on and I saw her boobs and wondered how come I didn't have any. All the females in my family have large chest. My younger sister is a 34 DDD. And has had large breast since 8th grade. I've been the laughing stock of my family on holidays. I exercise and try to eat right. I'm 5 foot 6 and 125 lbs. I scheduled a consultation with a PS that a couple of people recommended. I made the appointment without telling my husband. I told him the day before the appointment. My sister went with me and I had tons of questions. I hadn't decided if I was going to do it or not. I have a hard time spending money on myself. My sister said this is what you've always wanted and encouraged me. So I scheduled the surgery. Once I made that decision I was very excited and then got really scared and nervous. I scheduled the surgery a month ago so I have had a lot of time to think about it an I'm so addicted to this site. It has taught me a lot.

My pre-op is Sept. 12, and I can't wait. I'm thinking of 400 cc, moderate plus profile, under the muscle, inframmery. I want a natural look and would like to be a D cup. I'm currently 36 B. I'll post a picture as soon as I can. I've not told a whole lot of people. I work in a place that gossip spreads so fast. I've been wearing padded bras for the last month so hopefully no one will notice when I come back to work. I'm nervous about recovery and them riding high at first. I'm afraid I'll look at myself and get so depressed. I want to tell some of my friends because I feel like I need the support. Which is why I love this site so much. Any encouraging words are greatly appreciated.

Sept, 12, 2012

I finally posted some pictures, I am very computer illiterate. I also had my pre-op appointment today. Gosh I don't know why I am so nervous. I got all of my prescriptions filled and decided on an implant. I spoke to my doctor and took about 15 pictures of other women that I liked the look of and some that I didn't. I just want a natural looking chest, I'm not trying to look 20 again, just like a sexy hot 40 year old women that knows what she wants, Ha, ha. I'm going with the Mentor Memory Gel, 400 cc, moderate plus profile. Please comment and let me know what you think. Is it too big? Too little? Would love the advice. Also, I was thinking about getting one of those wedges to sleep on, but they are like 80 bucks. I wanted to know if anyone recommended investing in one. If it's worth it I need to order it soon, or should I just use lots of pillows? I don't have a recliner so I'm wondering about sleeping. I can't believe it is just two weeks away. I'm so excited but so scared also. I will keep you updated. This site is awesome and each and everyone of you girls have given me so much to think about reading your reviews. I feel more confident I'm doing the right thing.

Well, just one more week and I will have new boobies! I'm so excited and nervous. I've been trying to get everything ready. Medicine, snacks, my wedge pillow and getting my house clean. I've got to work a lot this week. I'm off the weekend and I'm going to my first football game. Then it's back to work Monday an Tuesday an then it's here. I'm so scared of what they are going to look like. I know there is no guarantee of the outcome. I'm afraid I wil hate my body even more than I do now. I've researched the doctor but there is always that fear that you overlooked something. My friends and family are so excited for me and I'm afraid to look at them after surgery. I don't know how I'm going to relax between now and then. I guess this is normal. I can't believe I finally get the opportunity to do this for myself. Keep me in your thoughts gals!