Just sad....

So I've been obsessed with this site for 3weeks now. Reading everyone's experiences has helped in so many ways and given me a few panic attacks! I am 22 years old, I love my boobs the shape and everything, I've just always been super self conscious about what I look like in a bikini and low cut tops and dresses.. My BA is scheduled for the 9th of December! I met with 2 different plastic surgeons, both said they cannot make me bigger than a C cup due to the rightness of my skin and stuff which doesn't bother me because I don't want to be too big and would like to be as natural as possible.. I am currently a 32A/B or 34AA depends on the brand of bra and so on. I am 170cm tall and weigh 57kgs but it fluctuates cause I've been gyming with a personal trainer trying to get the body to suit my new boobies! I am getting it done under the muscle and the incision will be under the breast on the crease (excuse my lack of knowledge on all the technical terms) it will be silicone implants. I had the worst time choosing between the two plastic surgeons. The first doctor said he would not go bigger than 250cc and that just seems soooo small. He is a young doctor with great looking offices and they gave me a bunch of brochures and documents that I could read.. felt certain I should choose him when I left his offices.. then went to the second doctor who is older more experienced also cheaper and he would be willing to go between 300cc to 350cc depending on how it looks once he's doing the opp. His offices aren't as fancy as the first doctor's and he's cheaper but the doc was great and made me feel so comfortable.. now I know all that sounds great but I had this nagging feeling I should go with the first doc.. after going back and forth its the size they offered that made me choose.. its about the size that I'm doing this so its quite obvious I should go with the second doc isn't it? Am I just being naive?? Oh well... I have exams in 3weeks and I cannot concentrate on anything but boobies, I'm counting down the days!!! Just thought I'd share my journey so far. Thanks to all you ladies on here for giving me great stories to read! Ive added a pic of what I look like in my sports bra. Geez thats flat!

How much info can I give to other girls about my choices in doctor's and so on? Are there any restrictions?? Don't want to get anyone in trouble.... by that I mean I don't want to get into trouble... while I'm posting I have some questions.. has anybody experienced an extreme fear of waking up in the middle of surgery?? I know its unlikely... but I've always been a little paranoid... And also I'm soo scared of stretch marks after the opp.. any suggestions?

Ok so I went a little over board today and bought a bunch of stuff I've read about to help prevent or reduce the appearance of stretch marks... I'm 37 days away from my surgery (yes I am that kind of girl even got an app on my phone counting down).. anyway and I want to start using something NOW to try and prevent getting stretch marks after my BA. I'm fair skinned and it runs in my family so trying everything to try and NOT get them... I've researched a lot on the topic and some doctors believe that if it's in your genes then nothing you do will help.. and also read that only 2% of BA patients get stretch marks.. if you have a doc that knows your limits and doesn't go too big on the cc's... so if any of you have any opinions or advice on the topic let me know! See the pic of everything I bought!!