Ohhhhh Here We Go - Jacksonville, FL

ok well ladies-----surgery was horrific, recovery was horrific and i had the worse experience of my life. My drainage tube was left in for 28 days. I ended up filling up and gaining five pounds of fluid and had to be drained on a weekend. This didnt end. I would not stop with the fluid . It wasnt a little fluid it was massive fluid. not taken out by a syringe but by a cut in my side and q tips shoved in till my seroma stopped bleeding and fluid quit draining. this happened twice a week at least sometimes more. Finally i learned to do this myself. I had to sit on the side of my tub, i had a one inch hole open in my side i had to pack with guaze to keep open, i had to push a q tip into my opening and find my seroma and burst it to release the fluid into my tub, all while my friend pushed on my stomach to drain the fluid. This happened for about six weeks...it was painful, i was swollen because i couldnt heal and always in his office. the last week i got ill. Something went wrong. My body was just so tired of fighting and trying to heal i got sick. Couldnt move, couldnt eat, i lost 9 pounds in six days. Swollen to beyond ok and in and out of er. I went to doctor and he was worried----i said lets just take me off medicine and see if i can tough it out over the weekend ---maybe the pain pills he said--percoset makes you bloated....4 days later i healed. I will never go through another surgery again---welll maybe i dunno...lol...i have to get past what i just went through..sorry so full or errors and bad grammar....thanks for checking up ladies

seven days post op.....long pause....that depression thing is true. I guess i have that surgery regret feeling because i feel so shitty. the drainage tube is horrible. the girdle makes me feel so yuck....im over i guess....im ready to go to the gym and feel normal...i dunno...would i do it again...? ill tell you tomorrow lol

so today was my pre op....omg...it like finally hit...im so nervous. I ill post pics of my road map of tears tonight...thank you so much for reading ladies. your prayers and words of courage help me allot. Keeping it a secret is hard from people...so this blog helps me allot by being able to talk about it. they were extremely nice and helpful there...the nurse was so great...i think im going to be ok.Thanks again girls...