San Diego, 48 Years Old, 5 Kids, Small Frame, Huge Boobs :(

I haven't updated for so long because I've been trying to come to terms with where I'm at. I haven't posted pictures for a long time for the same reason. My nerve issues are not completely gone but it is tolerable and getting better every week. The areas that are still ultra sensitive are much smaller (not both of my entire breasts the way it used to be). But as I've continued to heal I REALLY don't like where my nipples are placed. They are way too high (especially my right) for my new size and because of that my breasts have the bottomed out look. I tried on a bathing suit and if I move a certain way out pops the right nipple. Also, they are obviously two different sizes and shaped differently. I know that they are going to continue to change over the next four months but the nipple placement doesn't. And while I get my breasts are sisters, not twins, they should look related, and they don't! I have an appointment next Monday and I will discuss this with my PS. I just don't know if I want to be operated on again. Recovery has been really hard for me. I don't even know if there is anything that can be done. I never considered that nipple placement would need to be discussed with the doctor before surgery but I guess I should have. It wasn't a question I thought needed to be addressed. My incisions have healed great, no problems with spitting stitches. Still very sore at the end of the day and can't wear a regular bra yet. My energy has pretty much returned to normal and the pain caused by my large breasts is gone. So the medically necessary part of the surgery was a success but the aesthetic part is a real bummer.

Today I'm 16 days post-op. Healing has been tougher than I thought it would be and I've had no real complications! I wouldn't say I'm in pain but more discomfort – constantly – which is very debilitating by the end of the day. My new breasts are hyper-sensitive. Not just my areola/nipple area, all the skin!! The water from the shower is uncomfortable, any material touching my breasts is uncomfortable, going into a cold grocery store is absolutely awful. I'm not taking pain meds, just ibuprofen at the end of the day because of the soreness. I'll be glad when I get over this hurdle. Actually, I'll be glad when my breasts -- along with the ever present discomfort -- are not the first and last thing I think of every day. Yes, it's great to have smaller, perky breasts. Did I think I would still have this level of discomfort after more than two weeks -- nope. At this point it feels like I traded one type of discomfort for another. I know as time passes that my overactive nerve endings will probably settle down. But the doc said I could wake up with it gone tomorrow or it could take months, which I never expected. I know I sound like Debbie Downer but this is the reality (at least my version) of having this life altering surgery. Do I regret it? No. Would I do it all again? Ask me tomorrow... :)

Yesterday was hell. Pure. Simple. Hell. Pain? Check. Emotional basketcase? Check. Exhaustion? Check. Moodiness? Check. Massive allergic reaction and rash to blue sensitive skin tape along my incisions? Check. Cried like a baby? Check. Glad that day is over!!!!! All joking aside, day six was hard, in every way possible. My family wasn't sure whether to hug me or run for cover! Thankfully, day seven dawned with a new attitude. Still have the lovely rash as a nice parting gift but I feel better physically and emotionally. Onward BR friends...