Waiting is So Hard - Iowa City, IA

Hi! I am a 40 year old mom of 3. A girl and 2 boys. I breastfed 2 of them. My oldest child is 23 and my youngest is 6. My mom decided when I was 9 years old that I was ready for my first bra. I was in a C cup by the time I was a 6th grader. I remember my mom saying when I was 12 that by the time I was 20, I would have to push my boobs around in a wheelbarrow. Until that day, I never noticed I wasn't 'normal'. Through the 7th and 8th grade, I wore a coat every single day. I lived in North Carolina, and summers lasted from April until October, but I never took that coat off while at school. I'm now 5'1" and weigh 160 lbs.I currently wear a 38DD. I can't say that is my real size. I have never been professionally sized. Most DD will not fit me, but some will. When I find one that fits, I buy it. Like all the others here, I have suffered from back and shoulder pain, neck pain, and headaches. I have indentation on my shoulders from my bra straps, and my posture is poor.

I went to a consultation with my PS the first week of April. He told me that he would be removing about a kg. He didn't specify if that was from each side. I assumed at the time that it was, and didn't clarify. I did ask about the kg and he said that was a gram or 2.2 pounds and after that, they stop counting. I received approval from BC/ BS April 9th and my surgery is scheduled for May 27th. I am very excited and it seems like that day will never get here. My PS said that he was going to use a lollipop incision, and that I would have liposuction under my arms. I am hoping to be a B to a small C cup.

I am looking forward to being able to walk into any store that sells bra's and being able to buy one that fits. I am looking forward to being able to find bathing suits that fit. I want to look normal in clothes! I want to not be in pain!

It;s going to be a long month, but I really looking forward to this surgery!

So, I have read where others have had worries as surgery got closer. I worry that something will happen that will keep me from getting the surgery, or that I will come out and still be huge. I have also had dreams where this happens.. nightmares, really. It's amazing how these things that have just hung there for as long as I can remember and never said a word can have so much of an effect on me.

When I went in for the consultation, the nurse went over pre surgery instructions with me. And she said that because of that I won't have to come back until surgery day. But, they didn't draw any blood, do an EKG or a mammogram. When I got the letter from the insurance company approving the surgery I called and scheduled it. The lady on the phone said now we need to get you in for pre op, and I said it had already been done. I worry that I should have asked if there was more to it than had been done- just to be sure no other appointment is needed.

I have also been worrying about the things i will need here after surgery. I will be staying in the hospital overnight, but when I get home, what will I need? They never said if they will be providing me with a surgical bra. I went to wal-mart to get one of those front closure sports bra's I have seen some of the other ladies on here use. They have them, but I realized then that I have absolutely no idea what size I will be. My husband said to just buy one in every size :) I guess I will go back and get the most probable ones.

Other than all of the above, I am really excited. Only 21 days to go!