Plus Size Tummy Tuck

So my surgery is in 2 days. It's a little nuts to me to think how this has come to be. I'm a big person, always have been. It was really ridiculous to me that no one would even talk to me, more than ridiculous it actually just hurt my self esteem. I couldn't get past the gate keepers to even get an appt for someone to talk to me. Everyone has their BMI rules, and while I understand it I am more than just a number. I have a story, and I should not be dismissed without knowing anything more. Had anyone taken the time to talk to me they would have learned that I recently had a large weight loss and this procedure was a goal. I knew I still had weight to loose, I just wanted to meet a surgeon, and continue my motivation. I had no false understandings of what I still had to do. However, no one would even talk to me. I would call to schedule an appt and they would shut me down. Worse, one office (the first I called) actually scheduled my appt without asking me anything about my weight and then called back a couple days ahead of time to confirm and cancelled my appt telling me it was unfair of me to expect the surgeon to meet with me when I was highly unlikely to have the surgery.
I was getting ready to go out of state to a guy in LA when I came across my surgeon. I called and spoke to the nicest person. I explained the situation and what I was looking for and she had me send photos for the surgeon to reveiw. I was completely shocked when she called me back and said the doctor agreed to see me. I was even more stunned when the surgeon came in, looked at me and said "we can schedule surgery whenever you are ready". I'm still in disbelief. No one would even talk to me and i thought for sure I was going to need to loose a lot more. The surgeon could not have been nicer and talked to me like I was his family. He explained to me that once he saw my height and structure he had no hesitation. So here I am 6 weeks later, ready for surgery.
I've purposely left my numbers and his name out of this as there is a part of me that is just scared. Scared about what my results will be... I look at all these before and after photos and can't imagine that that will be my reality. This will change my life, I'm exctied and slightly terrified.

It's going to be a long day. Surgery at 2:15 and I can't sleep so I'm sitting here looking at before and after photos trying to find one similar to my shape and fat. I still have not seen anything that looks quite like me. I'm betting most women feel that way. I'm so excited, not looking forward to the pain but worth it to go to the flat side!

No one can fully prepare you for what it feels like to wake up from this. It's really intense. However once the pain medication was fully managing I was good! The hardest thing is the need to cough from being intubated. Coughing sucks! Still haven't stood up yet, and I can really see my full results yet. I'm looking forward to standing, and eating. I have not had any food in over 24 hrs... ok they gave me a jello but that is it.