Explant nerves

I have always been really self concious, not only of my looks, weight, but also of my small boobs. I know how I had always wanted to have a breast augmentation. After pregnancy i fell into bad post partum and fell trap to a mommy makeover, being I now had deflated sacs of 34b. I had been obsessing about breast augmentation and thought it was the answer, the way to make me feel whole again. I decided to take the plunge and got submuscular saline implants. Being I am small framed and low weight he wouldn't go over 240 cc and it was filled to 300 cc.
From the moment I had got them I had instant regret. The depression got worse as the "dropping and fluffing" was an agontizing waiting game and I slowly realized that my right breast was much less full than the left. I kept waiting for them to settle, and settle. I went in for any post op visits and felt even more self conscious getting undressed for pictures, etc. Looking at my before pictures I still cringed, and tried so badly to convince myself those were so much worse than what I had now.
So for the first few months I convinced family, friends, that pregnancy and breast feeding made my breasts more full and perky. I know that suspicions grew more and I started to cover more. I tried to convince myself that I was happy, that I loved them. That I was now proportionate. But the novelty of having big boobs soon wore off, soon I could do nothing but focus on how they were uneven to me, having this deep secret that made me never want to go swimming or out with family.
Soon after we found out we were pregant again, after that pregancy had ended my breasts produced very little milk. now here we are a year later drying up they became even more "sloshy". The right breast began to have indents, look much less full than the left, my left felt almost like it wasnt turned correctly. They have always made me feel so awkward and uncomfortable, but it began to get even worse, and I began to hate them.
I've matured a lot over the past year, and realize that the size of my breasts doesnt truly matter, and it isnt worth putting myself through countless operations in terms of my health. It just isn't something I want to put myself through, and I have decided I want to be my own advocate to love myself for my childrens sake. I honestly think that if I had never had the op done, at this point in my life right now, I don't think I ever would have had it done. It just isn't an issue to me anymore, having bigger boobs. I just want MY boobs back. I feel so much regret.
So the search begins, and discussing begins, my husband supports me but is constantly chirping saying I could just replace them,..
He is worried about my nipple size going to be too big when my boobs are smaller... will I need a lift...??
what do you think.. Thank you all

There are so many different options for doctor/surgeons out there. Where do I start? Anyone want to recommend a surgeon for an explant... around Bloomington, Peoria, Chicago area

I have decided I will go to my original surgeon for a consult. i was originally nervous that maybe they would be offended but i will see. Im going to try to explain that its nothing to them just something thats just not for me i realized soon enough. what do u ladies think? got a quote already for the explant capsulation etc 5500. The latest this will be done is January new boob year 17. but im hoping that I can do it sooner than later