Going in for the Mini TT - Illinois

I've been waiting to do an update, because weeks 1 and 2 were pretty tough. I read someone else say that time stood still and that is exactly how I felt. Actually, I felt like I had a huge block of ice attached to my abdomen and as it was melting, I would feel painful tingles throughout and it was tough to reach up with my arms or even sleep with my arms up. You don't realize how much you do with your body until it hurts to do it. Honestly I was starting to get depressed and wonder if I did the right thing. Although I see improvement, I can't say it is amazing... just yet. I know it is still swollen and there is a lot of healing left to go, but I am having a really hard time picturing the outcome and whether it will be the bikini ready body I am hoping for. Well, at week 3, I've finally turned a corner. I feel better, I can move around, I can sleep much better, the pain lessens each day and I also got a smaller sized spanx/ compression garment to wear. Its funny how much more comfortable I feel wearing it, mostly because its keeping everything in place. Well, I will try to post new pics as soon.

This morning the drain was removed and boy oh boy, it feels so much better. Every time I moved, it just sent burning pain through my hip and made it difficult to sleep. Now that it is gone, it just feels like a little small step in recovery where I feel like I've been standing still for awhile. This whole process has been quite humbling to me. I really thought I could do it all, and everything would heal easily, no problems whatsoever. Boy was I wrong. Who knew the drain would be the toughest part?

Well, these past few days have been difficult. During the day, I feel fine, but I pay for it at night with pain and have not been sleeping well at all. At one point, I stood up and just put my head on the bed thinking this might be more comfortable. taping down the drain was a big help bc every time it got pulled or jostled, it would send burning pain through my hip. I'm sure if the rest of my abdomen wasn't still numb, it would have hurt there too. Saw the nurse yesterday and she said still too much fluid to remove. She also said that I'm probably doing too much and need to slow down. I know she is right, so I will do my best. Praying for drain removal next Tuesday and for a relaxing peaceful weekend.