Fearful . . . - Hyannis, MA

I've been following this site for a few months. It has been a useful tool for me. Years ago, I had scheduled a tummy tuck but became very fearful and cancelled the procedure. I have had two C -sections years ago and lost over hundred pounds. No matter how much dieting and exercise, my body was never the same as before children. I started to research doctors in my area and came upon this site. I've followed the reviews for mommy makeovers. I had a consult about one month ago in Hyannis, MA with a doctor. He and his staff were very nice and made me feel comfortable in a VERY uncomfortable situation. It's an embarrassing moment when someone is feeling your sagging tummy and breasts, never mind taking pictures ! I thought I would get implants and a tummy tuck. He suggested getting a breast lift without implants because I'm already a C cup. He email me a quote and the next step is to schedule the appointment. I'm very fearful and have anxiety about taking the next step. One of the things he told was I would spend two nights in the hospital which made me feel better. I'm in my late forties and have wanted this for a LONG time. I feel after everything I've been thru in life, I owe myself the gift of being the person I've always wanted to be. Has anyone else had the breast lift instead of implants? Or would implants be better? Also, what advice could you give me for preparing myself for surgery? Someone told me I should see a nutritionlist to prepare my body for healing. Please give me some words of wisdom or guidance . . . How does one get over the fear ?

After following some of the ladies journey's and finding my own courage, finally I scheduled my surgery. I made all the arrangements with my place of employment, sending my security deposit and to have help in place when I come home. I did discuss my fears and severe anxiety with the nurse at my doctor's office. She does seem very nice , helpful and encouraging.

The count down begins, one more week till surgery. I was going to post pictures of myself but was moved to tears because of the appearance of my tummy. I think about how many times, I haven't done many things because of my appearance. ( such as wearing a bathing suit ) How my tummy has held me back. I've always heard the story, your so beautiful or have such a pretty face, too bad you have fat around your stomach. I often wondered if the people making such comments could see the flicker of pain come across my face. Yesterday, my doctor called to tell me when I did my blood work for my pre - op, they found I'm genetically inclined to blood clotting. At first, I thought he was going to tell me he couldn't do the surgery. Then, I wondered if this was a sign not to do it. I asked him if this was his wife or girlfriend would he still proceed with it? He said yes. It happened just as I was taking pictures of myself. Not a good moment. I've been praying and know in my heart, I want to be my authentic self before my self induced abuse of my body. These past two weeks, I've been busy cleaning, organizing and getting things prepared for surgery. I've been keeping busy so not to think about the unknown. My doctor did prescribe adivan for anxiety which seems to help, with the exception of yesterday. My mind wouldn't stop running with all the what if's . . . I will try to post pictures over the weekend.