40 and Oh my God Your So Big! - Huntington, NY

I'm so tired of hearing that! I'm 40, have 2 children, and I'm ready- I think. I'm currently wearing an uncomfortable 40DD. I'm 5'5 and 140lbs but look and feel a lot bigger. Growing up I matured like the other girls my age. I had nice 34B, then I had kids and a 36C. Then they just kept growing and growing. Everytime I would see family and friends they always said oh my god, how big are they? I had went for a PS consult last year and they found some benign cysts, that scared me, so I didn't proceed. Then this past year, my family and I went on a beautiful Caribean vacation. I have been wearing a matronly bathing suit with thick bra-straps, underwire and side wire, and so uncomfortable. Day 1 on the beach my back hurt so much I couldn't stand it. The next day I had to go buy a "beach shirt" so I could wear my bra underneath. That worked well enough, but I'm only 40!! In all the pictures, you see me and "the girls". The indentations on my shoulders were getting deeper and deeper. When we got back, I knew I had to do something! I've lost weight in the past, but the girls always stayed the same. I made another PS consult, and I loved my doctor. She made me feel totally comfortable and at ease. I have 2 different size breasts, 36gg and 36 i and they rest on my belly. I told her id like to be a small C. And although she said she cant guarantee that, she's confident that the results will be great! She took some pictures and sent it to the insurance company. waited and got the approval rather quickly. We picked a date 8/22/2014! It's never a good time, but you know what-it's my time. I'm a week away and go from I'm so excited, to maybe I should cancel it. But reading all these stories, gives me the comfort to keep going! I've got the Vitamin C, the Arnica pills, the pillow wedge. Did I mention it's back to school shopping time and the kids start school September 2?? Right now I'm pretty excited ! I'll take pictures and post them tomorrow!

So I'm getting nervous now. I'm looking for a front close bra and button up shirts and pj's. Going to Walmart tomorrow. Started my Arnica pills and Vitamin C.

As per my doctors orders, I picked up my antibiotic and started it. I also got my pain and anti nausea meds. I also found inexpensive button up shirts, bras and tank tops. Trying to have everything ready, so hubby and daughters don't have to do to much. I'm surprisingly not nervous, but I imagine I will be once I get my surgery time. I can't wait to be in the other side.