350cc High Profile Silicone Implants

Can't believe the emotional roller coaster it's been counting down to my surgery date. I still have a good 21 days till B-Day. Some days I wake up super excited about it, and others I want to cancel my appointments. For me, the worst part is anticipating the surgery itself - like I can't even imagine how nervous I'll be the night before and driving to my appointment. I feel like someone would have to literally drag me into the building. I'm not scared of the surgery or anesthesia - I trust the doctors completely - it's just the nerves before (maybe they can give me a huge dose of valium??). Am also scared of waking up in a lot of pain or freaking out because it's hard to breathe with the new chest tightness ( I also heard valium/muscle relaxers help with this?). I guess it's just the fear of the unknown - not sure how the surgery will turn out, hoping I don't have complications...
I was watching 'Botched' on E! and they said the complication rate for plastic surgery procedures - even if you go to a great doc - is 5-10%. I would just hope for health, time, financial, and sanity reasons that nothing would go wrong. I really like my current boobs - except for the fact that they're so small. It scares me that I might ruin what I have in the quest for something ' bigger and better' - that maybe I should just be thankful for what I've been given??
...but then I go bra shopping at Target and realize I WOULD really like to fill out a lace bralette. I also realize that life is short and there are no guarantees of how long any of us get to be around - so if I'm around, I think some bigger boobs would make me happier. I think I would regret not going through with it, as it's something I've always thought about ever since I saw Gisele Bundchen on the cover of Vogue when I was younger.
Anyways, thought I would share my crazy feelings with someone other than my poor husband. Perhaps someone else out there has felt similar things??

So yesterday was my BA consult at Dr. Ciaravino's office. When I called last week, they said I had the option of waiting about a month to have the consult with the doctor or they said they could fit me in this week with a surgical assistant. I went for the second option: 1 - to expedite the process and 2 - because for some reason, not meeting with the doctor just yet seemed a little less scary/final (did I mention I'm nervous?). The initial consult is free and they don't pressure you at all into committing to/scheduling surgery - it's very low key.

Jessica, the surgical assistant was friendly and helpful. She took me into a private room where I changed into a robe. She went over my medical history, explained the procedure, showed me saline and silicone implants and talked about the differences between them/let me feel them (I liked the silicone better - it feels a bit more natural but runs about $1,000 more than the saline ones), and took some measurements of my chest. I told her I was looking to end up somewhere between a full C and small D cup (I'm barely a 32B right now) and showed her some wish boob pics. She said with my height/weight/measurements, she'd recommend 350cc high profile implants which is kind of what I was expecting/wanting. She told me that Dr. C usually tries to place his implants under the muscle with crease incisions which is also what I was wanting - win win! After answering all my questions, she took me to have a Vectra image done of my boobs, which while not 100% accurate, gives you an idea of what your final result might look like. I was really happy with the photo (I posted it along with this update) but couldn't believe how small my boobs currently looked in the before photo - I literally looked like a pre-pubescent little girl. It was depressing. Seeing that on the computer screen kinda sealed the deal for me. Lastly, I went over cost ($6,500 with a non-refundable $500 deposit that goes towards your surgery) with Becca, the patient coordinator, and that was it - quick and easy!

I went home, talked to the hubby, looked at the calendar and scheduled the first available Friday surgery date - May 15th (with a pre-op on April 29th) - then proceeded to look up general anesthesia intubation videos on YouTube freak out the rest of the day. :/ I'm feeling slightly more settled today about it all - I KNOW I want it and will be happy once it's over but am just horrified at the thought of having elective surgery. Anyone else have major pre-op anxiety? :(

Also, was wondering if any of you amazing ladies had suggestions on must-have BA items: support pillow, compression socks, surgical bras, etc?? And how long should you wait before buying new bras after surgery? Any advice would be much appreciated!

Well, I have to admit I'm a little nervous sharing deets on what (for me) is a very personal/private procedure...BUT! I've been SO thankful for all the amazing women on this site who have gone above and beyond - sharing their own pics, advice, personal experiences on their surgeries that I felt I should return the favor. Plus, if my experience helps one girl feel a little more comfortable with her decision, then it will be worth it (and also it's a little cathartic too!).

As far back as I can remember, I feel like I was always waiting for my boobs to grow, as all the women in my family have great boobs. Cut to the chase - it never happened for me. Pretty sure I'm a small A cup, although 32B seems to be the magic bra size for moi. I'm lucky in that I'm tall (5'11'') and thin (130-135 lbs based on how much I've stuffed my face), so I could always get away with the waif look but deep down, I always felt insecure undressing in front of others - unwomanly, like a little girl. Fast-forward a decade or so - now that I'm 32, done with school, married, and working I realized what am I waiting for?? Life is too short not to go after what you want. So, after pouring over Real Self (of course), Yelp, plastic surgeons websites, and picking the brains of several friends who've had the procedure done (4/4 of them btw say it was one of the best things they've ever done for themselves), I finally decided to get breast augmentation myself.

Yay! Super nervous...but still yay!