46 Years Old, Tired of Implants, Finally out After 16 Years. Honolulu, HI

Aloha All,
Well, this past week I finally went bra shopping...I have always hated bra shopping, especially since I got my implants. I thought I would be able to go in and bras would fit now, but I was wrong. Is it me or does seem like bras now days are made for 15 year old girls with perky breasts and no width to their back and only weigh 100 pounds! Good lord, I think I tried on 30 bras, of course here at my small Macy's there is no-one to help measure, etc. Anyway, finally found one that fits well, and I believe I am a 34B, but who knows because it seems bras are kind of like clothes are these days, in some brands I'm a 4 in others an 8, in other's still a 2, or a 10. No body sizes things in a true sense these days, it is all subjective and makes shopping for clothes an F-ing nightmare. Can't wait to go back to Honolulu and go to Victoria's Secret and get measured and helped.
Anyway, for the first time I was a bit discouraged with my lack of fullness, as I don't fill anything out like I used to, back and armpit fat show a little bit more as there is no weight in front to pull it tighter...but I had to tell myself that I look SOOO much better in clothes now! I went clothes shopping too, with my implants I went bra-less a lot as I could fill things out. I found myself not looking at the clothes I really wanted because they would require a bra...I was scared that if I went braless now my boobs would sag more over time. How stupid is that, I went braless with two pounds pulling them down, going braless now at times certainly wasn't going to cause them to sag more. So I bought a couple of things I really loved and can go braless if I want or wear a cute camisole with or something. I must say, I thought I was used to how they looked now, and for the most part I am, but getting used to how they look in new clothes was an adjustment. But a wonderful adjustment. I bought a couple of sun dresses in size small, so they don't look like a tent when you put them on (always had to buy medium or large to fit the implants). That felt great!

I still don't see much of a difference in them from a couple of weeks ago, but maybe next week I'll take some more pictures just to see. All in all, still feeling wonderful physically, emotionally, and spiritually!! So worth the hassle of trying on 30 bras!~

Yesterday was my one month out from explant!! I have to say I feel wonderful and continue to feel better and better. I do not have any current pictures, but they look about the same as the last ones I posted. Still a bit concave above and all, but they feel so great! I have noticed a few things that I never connected to having implants, but I have no other explanation for the sudden improvement.
Not long after I got my implants I did something that threw my neck and hip out of whack and it has been a constant struggle ever since, going to the chiropractor once a month, trying to sleep a certain way so my neck wouldn't hurt. If I did any thing too physical my hip would go out of whack and I would have nerve pain in my right leg and arm. I have not been to the chiropractor since before my surgery, and after painting all my baseboards last weekend, which normally would have sent me running to him, my neck, hip, arm and right hand all feel fine. I was tested several time for carpal tunnel or radial nerve damage in my right arm, holding a paint brush for two days would have made my hand sore and my pinky finger almost immovable, did not happen!!! I still feel it a bit, but more a muscle fatigue in the hand and arm than a nerve issue. It has to be that the implant was somehow pinching a nerve or something, because there is no other explanation why it would suddenly feel better. I get up out of bed feeling good instead of tired, achy and full of muscle fatigue. Also, I can fully stretch instead of the implants hindering a full movement, it feels so wonderful to be able to do that. The pectoral muscles feel normal for once and I seem to have gotten some strength back that I didn't realize I was missing until I went to push something together and was able to do it easier than ever before.
I look younger, my chest skin is tighter than ever, hoping that tightness moves down to my boobs!! I have greater mind clarity than I have in a long time and my emotions seem to be less roller coaster. I was told once I have mild depression and was put on Wellbutrin for years, this was also not long after getting my implants. I went off Wellbutrin a long time ago and just managed my emotions with yoga, mindfulness, and stress relief, but it was still there underlying and something I had to fight once in awhile. I feel different now, really different, like the depression triggers are nothing I can't handle...it is fascinating. My eyes look clearer and not so tired.
I never really put the two together because everything was on the mild side, but I do remember telling my husband a long time ago that I never felt the same after getting my implants. Well, oddly enough, now I feel better, like my old self that I have missed for a long time. Not one day has gone by since my surgery where I have missed those implants or having large breasts or cleavage...not one! I still have not started a good exercise regimen as I have house guests and am having trouble managing it all right now...but handling this better mentally than ever before oddly enough...anyway, I cannot wait to see what happens once I start exercising for real! Thanks everyone for their comments and well wishes! I will be going bra shopping soon, (been wearing a soft bra and sports bras just do to no time to go shopping!) finally ready I think as I hate doing that, but I am hopeful it will be a positive experience. Cheers!

Here are my three week post op pictures. I'm pretty happy with how they are. The "void" has filled in to where is doesn't feel like an empty space any more and I am pretty used to the new look and feel. They are a bit droopy but hey, what could I expect, my implants were too big and I did have a pregnancy and breast fed, so there you go. As far as how I feel...fantastic! Finally sleeping better than I have in a very long time as I can sleep on my stomach , roll over, etc without something in the way. For me this is much more about how I feel than anything. I feel like me and that nagging in the back of my mind that someday they would leak, knowing another surgery is inevitable is gone! I don't have to think about it any more or keep myself from worrying about it anymore because it's gone. Now I can focus on being the best me working with what I got. Once again just have to thank all the ladies on this site who have gone before me that helped me get it done!! To all those contplating it..,go with your gut!