29 Mother of 1, Ready for a Change!

After years of dieting only to gain back the weight time and time again I decided it was time for a big change. I needed more help to be successful. It hit my like a ton of bricks when I took my 1 1/2 year old to the park and she wanted to go down the "big slide". I wanted to let her go but it was at the top and I couldn't fit up there to make sure she would be safe (multiple other options of ways down.. straight down) so I refused to let her go up until my younger/skinnier sister could come with us. It started a horrible trend of not wanting to take my daughter to the park unless I had someone with me to help. That was the start, my breaking point came when I took her to the movies and couldn't fit in the chair. I broke down at that point. So I called my doctor and she recommended gastric bypass.

Canada is an extremely slow process. My orientation was November 26, 2015. I got all my labs done within two weeks of that date but wasn't contacted until July 2016 for my next appointment, pre-nutrition class scheduled for August 5, 2016. Then they started to come faster. I finally finished with the dietician, psychologist, internist and met with a surgeon January 9, 2017 and scheduled my surgery for February 3, 2017 @4pm. So over a year to get here. I just started my optifast diet today, day one of two weeks. I'm incredibly nervous but also anxious to get healthy. I've been following all the diets, tracking everything and taking it very serious. I think a lot of my motivation to do well is my daughter. If I pick up an unhealthy food I'd look at her and feel guilty so I wouldn't eat it. I've lost 10lbs on my own so far.

I can't wait to run and play and go down that damn slide this summer with my daughter! I am thankful to have a lot of support around me, everyone has been beyond great helping me with appointments and childcare. I have a lot of fears about the surgery itself and that would be the one spot I don't have much support with, I guess it's easier to say "everything will be fine" when it's not you under the knife. I can't imagine leaving my daughter so young, there's so much I want to do and show her. I keep telling myself it's better to take the leap now then wait five years and have many, many more issues due to my size.

Scared but anxious, this site has helped me a lot by reading others experiences. I'm ready for a big change.

5'4"
Hw: 293lbs
Cw: 282lbs

I'm pretty disappointed, I got a call to say that my surgery that was going to be today at 4pm is now rescheduled for February 16. I was all ready to go but still a bag of nerves, maybe an extra two weeks will help. I was so ready to be on the other side. I hope these next 13 days fly by. On the up side my husband is able to take time off to be with me after surgery with this new date. Meeting my new surgeon Monday.

Surgery is tomorrow morning at 8am! Very excited by also nervous, it is a big change but I'm ready to start new. I've packed my bags and made lists for my lists so I don't forget a thing. It's only two days and I feel like I'm prepping for a weeks vacation.

These last two days of clear fluids have been rough. I'm a stay st home mom and my toddler is a ball of energy and I feel zapped of all of mine. Trying to play and take advantage of these last few hours with her before she stays with her grandparents. Thankful for family, they have helped me a lot with this process. I'm hoping tomorrow goes smooth and I can finally get on the losers bench.