Female, 24yo, 5'6, 130 Lbs, No Kids - Grand Rapids, MI

I have been a frequent visitor of this site, ever since the beginning of May of this year, but I have looked on here many times before. Like many, I was ridiculed for my size. I wanted nothing more than to have big boobs (or at least, bigger!) growing up. I remember wanting my period to start so that I could start to look more feminine, even tho I grew up a tomboy. It was something I became obsessed with for many years growing up. My fiancee has always says he loves them how they are, and he has made me feel more beautiful than I feel I deserve at times. I kept making comments about getting BAS for years (we've been together 9 years), but it wasn't until this year that it was feasible financially. I thought a lot about it before agreeing (even making a pro/con list...yea, I'm like that lol). I didn't want to do it for the wrong reasons. I told myself that I wouldn't do it until I loved who I was first. So I started wearing less padding; down to no bra at all! And I felt pretty good. I became comfortable with who I was. So comfortable, I thought maybe BAS was unnecessary! I figured out what to wear to look nice on my figure, but there were always things that I liked but felt I couldn't wear because of my size. I was ok with that, but it was disappointing. When we decided to have the surgery, I started wearing larger pushup bras to hopefully not make it so obvious, and I found that I really loved the way I looked when I wore them. Surgery scares me...but I am hoping it will be worth it! I have a surgery scheduled with Dr. Ringler on the 19th of this month. Did anyone else have second thoughts before their surgery, or feel really nervous/scared?

These are my pre pictures! Unfortunately, I am really bloated (monthly fun), but you get the idea. I'll also post inspiration pics.