Finally..but Still Too Good to Be True. - Gaithersburg, MD

I've been trying to get a reduction for over ten years now. I'll start with the decision, then give up on it because I figured it would be impossible. It didn't take til last year for me to decide that it HAD to happen. My back was killing me, my shoulders were bruised and it tore my self esteem apart and I'm only 31. Not only that I wanted to become a runner and my breast held me back. However I complete two 5k's and 1 10k. I had to run wearing a regular bra and a compression tank because I seriously could not find a sports bra in my size. When I worked out I hated having to throw on a coat of armor to work out. It was discouraging and it made me give up. I was at my breaking point.

So I contact my doctor to talk about it, he definitely agreed that it needed to happen and he put my referral in to see a surgeon for a consult. Easy huh? That was the only part that was. Even though seeing the surgeon was a breeze, I had to deal with insurance approvals.. They wanted my doctor to write a letter stating my issues and what I have been doing to alleviate my pain. I have been doing nothing. I've been busty since I was a teen, I just dealt with it. I debated on if I wanted to jump through these hoops because I made it this far. As soon as I decided to give it a go, my mother gets in a accident and breaks her femur.. So my chances were fading away. I couldn't have the surgery knowing she would need help recovering, not only that I'm a single parent. I had to play the mom role now with two people.

Goodbye Reduction.....or was it???

So because of my daughter I ended of switching insurance over so she can have better healthcare. We switched over to Kaiser Permanente, I grew up going to their doctors and liked the ease of services. This happened in June, I decided to go for my annual GYN check up in July and without the thought of a BR in my head, my Dr put it right back in by saying....."Do you want a breast reduction?"

She told me she would put the referral in after the appointment and that's exactly what she did.. A week later I got a call to set up an appointment with the surgeon. I decided to set the appointment for August 5th. I didn't know what to expect but I figured there would be more hoops to jump through, but guess what? It wasn't. I met up with him, he checked me out, measured me, took some picture and instantly went into talking about the procedure. I kind of already knew the bulk of it being that I have been researching on my own, but he was also giving me new information. He then asked me my size so he can order my surgical bras..

Say what? Hold on this is sounding too real..
We talked a little more about the surgery, then he handed me some pre op information along with a scheduling number to call. It was going down y'all!! I stopped him to ask, "So this is really happening, like I don't need a approval?" He said nope, I obviously needed it done, and being that it will be outpatient the doctor is the deciding factor. So yes.. It was official, I was going to have the surgery, it was all in the matter of when.

So as soon as the appointment was over, I called to schedule.. I was way to anxious lol. I wasn't in the system yet but she gave me a date window of Nov-Dec. I was cool with that........sort of lol. I called her the next day to see if I was in the system, she remembered me and said that I was and that there was no specific date but it will be in November, but she then offered to put me in the cancellation list. She said if someone cancel I will get a call and it could be at anytime. I was cool with it because I've been ready for this for a very long time.

So with me and my impatience, I called a few days later just to see if I can grab a specific date in November.. She said there weren't any yet..

But...

Someone cancelled, and I can have their spot. See a little impatience will get you somewhere lol. I told her when was this opening, and she said next week on the 20th. Luck has struck I tell ya!! All I had to do was get my mammogram and pre surgical testing done, but it had to be the day after that phone call.. You think I didn't set those appointments up with the quickness???

So now I am set... Testing done, shopping done, and today I'm cleaning.. It may seem rushed but trust me it isn't. I've been prepping since my first encounter with the first surgeon. I had my list and everything. All I had to do was follow through and that's what I did.. So now all I can do is wait til Wednesday, we'll actually Tuesday. I go to the dr for a pre surgery appointment to get drawn on, then it will really be real.. I wonder if he will give me something to calm me down because I know that I will get no sleep the day before the surgery.

Oh as far as sizes.. I'm a 44 J and I'm going to a D cup.. I'm getting a FNG because my breast are insanely huge and the surgery is said to last 6 hours.. SHEESH!!

I am ready though.. I think these next few days are going to be the slowest ever..

ANXIETY MAN!! It cause havoc on my body along with iced coffee when you're lactose intolerant lol. It's 3:41am and for the last few days since my date has been pushed up, sleep has been a thing of the past.

Anyway, today I head out to Capitol Hill (DC) to meet with my surgeon one last time before the surgery tomorrow morning. Nervous? Not yet, just anxious to get it done and over with. I can't wait to see how it feel to have all this weight off my chest. I even started to look up runs to do after I heal up enough to start up again. I was on a medal mission last year but my back pains and seeing my pictures make me stop I looked an awful mess trying to run just wearing a underwire bra and a soft cup bra together. Now I get to buy all the fancy smancy sports bras lol. I can also get back to my weight loss mission. I read a few times about sagging and blah blah when you loose weight after. I'm ready for it if it happens, it won't stop me from obtaining my goals. I would think strength training would keep the skin and muscles tight.

I'm all over the place now lol. Ok, so I plan on fixing a few meals tomorrow so I don't have to cook anything. My bf is going to come pass and check on me throughout my recovery so more than likely I'll be having him do Subway runs lol.

As far as my job, I'm fairly new there so there's no sick leave, no FMLA, it's just I'm taking off and not getting paid. It sucks but this trump, I've been waiting too long for this. But what made me mad is that he expected me to come back to work this Monday coming up. My post op appointment isn't even til that Thursday. So why would I come back to work without seeing my doctor first? He's very insensitive, might I also add that I am a commuter.. I will not be ready for the turns and bumps metro has to offer, especially on a crowded bus. He told me to bring a pillow and hold it up to my chest while I'm on the bus.

What?

So while I'm recovering I'll be looking for a new job lol. I actually already started looking and hope someone calls during my recovery. I hate being there and how he is acting towards my surgery is a mess. I already told him that either by bf or myself will swing pass Friday to pick up my check. I didn't want him to hold it hostage while I am contemplating on whether I want to go back or not.

Ok, I'm yammering. I want to take before pictures today so I can post my after tomorrow.. I also have to take out all my piercings, even my downstairs one (booooooo!!!) and I also need to change my nuvaring before I go because my hands won't be reaching down there for a while. TMI TMI, I know sorry..

Let me go to bed..

It's late.. and it won't let me fix it lol.