Breast lift with Implants, 3 Kids, 340cc

I'm suuuuper excited about my procedure but exhausting myself with constant obsessing over before and after photos. I've finally told myself that no matter how much research I do at this point, my outcome will be the same. I've placed full trust in my doctor. I really want perky, full, round romantic breasts. When I asked for this though, my dreams were a little shut down because my doc wants my results to last. He has chosen 340 cc Allergan soft touch under the muscle, low profile gummy bear silicone, with mastopexy (anchor stitch most likely). I understand that this size puts less stress on my incisions and overall may give me lasting effect from my lift. My femininity within keeps whispering "I hope these are big enough". I grew up a tomboy but always craved being "girly" and used to stuff my bra with Kleenex....hahaha. So I do want to feel more feminine and using the opportunity for a lift, to take advantage of the option of being bigger. I'm currently a C, I think lol. When I lay flat it all disappears and I have two empty bra cups. I CANNOT go without a bra, without feeling like I look like a granny. Not even in my own home. My husband is content with my current body and is also supportive of my wishes too. I'm 5' 6" and 153. When I had my consult I was 165 and told my doc I was not at my ideal weight. He felt that was ok and said I could still go forward with my surgery because if I lost the weight after, it would not have that much of an effect on my end result. I'm still trying to lose as much as possible before my surgery though and have lost 12 pounds already. Any feedback or opinions on my treatment plan is welcomed. I will continue to update pre and post surgery as the date nears.

I'm scheduled first thing in the morning this Friday. It's now Tuesday and I'm just dodging anyone that I know for sure is sick. I work in the medical field so that is pretty difficult but I've been practicing good hand hygiene and taking emergen-C every day and my multivitamin. My preop bloodwork was just hematocrit and hemoglobin. My hematocrit was slightly low so I called my doc and they said it was ok. They said its actually quite common in women my age. I also have been anemic almost my whole life so I wasnt surprised. Just relieved that I don't have to reschedule. I have been doing so bad with my diet! They didnt give me much instruction but I know the better I eat, the faster and easier my recovery. I just find it so hard to resist stuff when drug reps come by the office with goodies!! Here are some more before pictures. I noticed a scar or stretch mark underneath my left breast that I have never noticed before and have no idea how it got there! I'm just glad I noticed it or else I probably would've thought it was from surgery. If it doesn't get removed with the lift, that is. I finally told my husbands mom about my procedure. I was scared to because I didnt know what she would think, but had to tell her because I went be there for Easter and she also watches our son so I had to explain why my best friend will be dropping him off and picking him up until I can drive again. She was accepting of it I think. At least she was polite about it. I appreciated that because I actually do care about her opinion of me, my husband loves and respects her. My best friend took the whole week off to help my husband around the house and help with the kids. Looooove her! Will be getting her a gift for doing that. I took the whole first week of April off of work so that gives me 10 days total for recovery. I am so scared of the pain. My doctor doesn't give prescriptions to fill ahead of time. That makes me nervous to imagine that I'll be bandaged up and trying to fill my pain script on the way home from surgery....I don't know why they do it this way as I've seen on other reviews that others fill their scripts the day before, but can respect that decision and didn't question it. I'm just complacent lol whatever you say, just fix my boobs!!

So in about 9 hours ill be at the surgery center. Im so pumped!!! I definitely wont be able to sleep tonight. I havent really prepped any meals, bought any bras, filled any scripts, or done anything that other real selfers do before surgery lol not because i dont want to but i havent had the time. I wont get my pain script until tomorrow anyway so thats when ill pick up the others. I guess it will be helpful for you guys to know how much this butes me in the ass haha. My coworkers are awesome and made me a card. I love them.