hairline lowering and brow lift

as you all can tell by my previous post, this has been a serious journey of emotional and physically healing after a crisis. i have learned so much. identity crises are far more common after cosmetic surgery than we think; so common and intense that i had been admitted into a psych ward, hospitalized in the ER, and have had intensive trauma therapy since.
with that being said, i'd just like to say that dr. dudas is an phenomenal surgeon, truly. he has been with me every step of the way of this very difficult process, answered every late night call, and has kept in touch since. but, i would also like to thank God that i went with dr. dudas rather than any other surgeon. even though i regret what i put myself through, his work is remarkable. he's truly an artist, he pays so much attention to detail and values the quality of life his patients have.
at the beginning of my journey, i suffered from a serious identity crisis in regards to my physical appearance after the procedure. at the time, i believe i had made a mistake, but as time progresses, i'm accepting more and more of my decision. physically, i am healing completely and nearly perfectly. i'd like others to know who are interested in this surgery to either completely avoid it or proceed with serious, serious caution. i wouldn't trust just any surgeon with this procedure. it is invasive and intense, requiring months of healing and post operative care.
with that being said, i'd like to say that my results are astounding ..i mean seriously optimal. i'm not going to change anything. all of the numbness is my scalp has resolved as i can feel it 100% once again. all hair i lost due to shock loss or expected shedding has completely grown back. and more importantly, you can never tell i ever had anything done. the scar is invisible. i have showed my extended family my "scar" and every single cousin, aunt, and uncle replies with "what scar?" the reduction was just as conservative as the plans i had made with dr. dudas before the operation. it was only reduced it by 1 cm in height (currently at 7.25cm) , so yes, my forehead is still "round and high" and i wouldn't change a single thing.
secondly, i would like to explain the reason of my crisis. i suffer from serious OCD and BDD (body dysmorphia disorder) and that is in no way dr. dudas' fault. i had no idea i had these conditions prior to surgery and if i had known the magnitude of my illnesses, i would not have gone through with the procedure. i made a decision with a silent mental disorder and didn't realize until it took its toll on me.
i was in pain and darkness for what seemed like forever until i reached a certain point in my healing; emotionally and physically (especially with the help of anti depressants), where i could finally see a light.
although i did have this surgery and in no manner want to be paint myself as a hypocrite, the lesson i have learned from this journey is "gratitude over everything".
prior to surgery, i had been so warped into the way i looked that i believed i needed cosmetic surgery to improve my happiness and the way i felt about myself. like many of you, i was on social media constantly being shown products and ways to look "prettier", "younger", "thinner", or "more attractive". it got so bad that i would come across reddit groups dedicated to criticizing foreheads of female celebrities saying "if she had a smaller forehead, she would look prettier" and "large foreheads make women appear older".
at this point, i just want to scream to the world ENOUGH. i have deleted all social media.
physical perfection is a delusion, it's simply not real and will never exist. emotions and opinions about such are not truth.
there's so much more to us than our physical appearance. the quality of life is not based off of how we look, but rather what we do with our time. i wish i had spent more time going on walks with friends, travelling, reading, painting, or heck SKYDIVING rather than constantly critiquing my physical appearance in the mirror.
for the longest time, i regretted my decision because i believe i didn't appear "normal" after the procedure due to swelling and my scar not appearing flat yet.
i missed the life i used to have; not having to wear a hand or a hat, or hide my face whenever i went out in public. i never realized how ungrateful i was. i wish i just had more gratitude for my health or my life! i was so sucked into this idea of "perfection" that i forgot who i was and how much i had to be thankful for.
so before you, yes the one reading this, decides to pursue cosmetic surgery think of all the things that you have rather the the things you could have.
lastly, i'd like to say BIG FOREHEAD SUPERIORITY. pm me if have any more questions for me or want more photos. i haven't been able to post for a long time because i couldn't manage to take photos of my progress. ty for being so patient.

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note: the white streak across my forehead and along my hairline is not the scar. it's an embarrassing tan line on my noggin from wearing a headband outside for the entire summer to protect my hairline.

I already 100% regret this procedure. I feel like I've ruined my life, I'm not sure if I'm being too quick to judge. If it gets better, it will be a miracle. 16 days out and my forehead looks small and boxy. I told Dr. Dudas that I like my forehead size and only want to alter my hairline. Less than 1 cm was taken off. I was at 8cm and now I'm at 7cm with a mild brow lift, but for some reason it looks way too small. I measured it multiple times to make sure I'm not crazy. I'm already severely depressed and Dr. Dudas won't answer my emails. I'm completely heartbroken and I feel like this is completely my fault. I remember calling Dr. Dudas assistant and trying to cancel the procedure and get hair transplants instead, but she led me to believe that I would be happier with hairline lowering. I'm crushed inside. I don't know why my forehead looks small and boxy. I'm still swollen. The shape is coming back, but I know it will never be the same. I've already shed a lot of hair, but for some reason I don't have any bald spots. My anxiety is through the roof. The most I can do after I heal is laser the incision and the hair and incision will go back by maybe 0.3 of a centimeter. I think it will make a little of a difference. I feel like I want to die, I'm so so heartbroken.