Back to me and feel totally free and natural - Folsom, CA

I've had Sientra Silicone 320cc implants under the muscle for 11 weeks. It's been a rough road. I immediately had multiple issues, not so much with the implants, but with my body from the implants and I've had enough.

I have a brachial plexus (nerve) injury from the surgery
still have side effects from the general anesthesia (hormones out of whack, numbness and tingling in feet, anxiety, feeling weak, etc.)
constant headaches
backaches
arms hurt
Costochondritis
and just feel overall weak and crappy all day.

I was in the best shape of my life before this surgery. I had just run a marathon and got my taekwondo black belt in the months prior. I was kicking ass. Thought this would be a quick recovery and I'd get back to life soon. Who knew that the tummy tuck part of this mommy makeover would have been the easier part...

I wanted to do this to enhance my life, not ruin it, so out they are coming!!

I meet with my PS tomorrow and will schedule asap. We talked briefly about it at my last appointment and he said it's a quick procedure, no need to do anything but take them out. However, I do have to have sedation. I just don't want to go under again. My body does not like medication and especially not anesthesia. I wish I could just do local and pop a valium or something. I will be begging for that and see if he will in any way consider it.

My husband also finally confessed that he really didn't want me to have it done in the first place. WHAT??!!! I wish he had told me that to begin with. I must have asked him 1,000 times if I should do this or not. He just told me what he thought I wanted to hear. Makes me mad. I was partially doing this for him and have hung on to them this long because I thought he liked them. I just wish he had been honest. Would have saved me thousands of dollars and potentially permanent problems from my nerve damage and other issues I'm now having. UGH!

PS thinks that because I've only had them in for 3 months they should go back to normal.
I'm wondering if the muscle will also heal and stop moving everytime I lift anything or flex my pec muscle. Does anyone have any comments about this? I hate that my breast moves everytime I do anything.

I know that even though I want them out badly, I am going to be in shock when I look at them. It's now hard to even remember what they used to look like. I'm going to upload before implants, with implants and then after my procedure photos for comparison.

I just want to be done with this and move on.

I met with my PS today. It was so bittersweet. He's been supportive every step of the way and I have a great surgical result. My body is just having so many problems adapting to the implants and I'm tired of trying to make them work. I did finally say that it was probably best that I just remove them rather than going to a smaller size as I may still be unhappy and have trouble with smaller implants and may end up removing them anyway. I was very emotional today, but I know it's what I really need to do.

So, no I'm gearing up for surgery again and getting off any supplements and vitamins, motrin, etc that is on my forbidden list and getting my post op stuff together.

I'm so happy I didn't get rid of my pre op sports bras, I'll be needing them now!! I had a few that were very expensive and my favorites and was going to list them on eBay and I snatched those out of the box and they are back in my drawer! Under Armour Armor Bra and my Moving Comfort Bras are my favs.

So, I'm doing a simple removal, no capsule removal, no drains with local and a light IV sedation. I'd do it without the IV as I am not looking forward to those meds again, but he won't do it without.

Will take a few days of recovering and a few weeks off of running again.

Then I hope to be on the road to healing and hope all of my troubles with nerves, back pain, neck pain, etc start to retreat.

Back to basics and I'm ok with that. I just wish it was sooner, but with the 4th of July holiday, they are booked up until then. 3 more weeks with these boobs...

I am starting to wonder if I should also be having the capsule removed since I have silicone. I am trying to read about it and finding all kinds of different answers. Some doctors say to leave it, no problem. Others say it causes problems later. Some say that if some toxins leached out from the implant shell, it will be in the tissue and may cause problems. Can I detox from that? I have so many questions. Does anyone have any comments on this??