First I hated my implants now I love them

The swelling has gone down, no more back pain and found out I have headaches because I had been dehydrated, once I started drinking more water the headaches went away. I'm now starting to love my implants for I don't have anymore for the side effects I had before and because they aren't huge. They are very proportioned to my body.

Called my PS office crying telling them I was unhappy. I can't sleep well, my back hurts, I have lots of headaches, and I told them this was a huge mistake and I want th out. They told me its only been a month and to give it six months. They cannot do anything till six months after the first ba. I asked how much will
It be and she said about $7,000 because I may need a beast lift. All I could do was break down. I'm so depressed with this decision I had made. Although I didn't have anything before, padded bras were my best friend. It was like false advertisement. And I was so obsessed with what I never had now that I finally have breast I hate them. I wish I could turn back the hands of time and just wait till after I had kids. I guess I'm going to have to kept them in till its time to remove them. Next time I'll do a fat graft transfer with a beast lift and say goodbye to these heavy implants. I'm so miserable, I just want to take a knife and take them out myself. I know I'm so hard on myself. I just want to be happy but I'm not.

Prior to getting implants I was a extremely small A (34 a). I thought getting implants was the solution and would make me feel like a woman instead of a 12 year old girl. Two weeks after my 29th birthday I got the implants. The day of surgery I was so nervous but the doctor assured me that I was going to be okay. 3 days post op I was so depressed, they looked huge! I am 5'3 about 140 and he gave me a full C-D. I asked him for a c which was portion to my body. It's been a month today and everybody says I look great. Funny because I don't feel great. I am so depressed. They don't feel like they are part of my body. I've been reading about all these horror stories about the toxic silicone it scares me so much. I want to have kids in a year or two and breast feed and I don't want to hurt my child God forbid if the silicone starts leaking. I rather take them out early so my breast snaps back to what they use to be. I wish I loved myself and appreciated how I looked before. I really don't like these implants and I'm afraid to tell people since they think I look great and better. I'm giving it till six months which is on December 17th. I'm still probably going to want them out. My boyfriend has been my biggest supporter, I just feel like I've been bugging him with my unhappiness. He definitely understands and said he would walk with me the whole way through. Has anybody felt this way after a month? Did you end up loving the implants after they settled or still wanted to eventually have them removed.