Femilift... 38 and in need of vag tightening

Honestly I feel so disappointed and totally alone. This time around has been a complete flop (pardon the pun), there's no difference at all and I'm constantly doing my pelvic floor (I know I'm doing them correctly because I use the Elvie.
Again as I said before I've never had a problem with leakage or incontinence. No bulge or anything hanging out so it's hard to judge. Just looseness and not able to grip my finger that well. I can feel the walls, and my walls can feel my finger but I can't seem to grip well at all.
My MD is as helpful as a chocolate teapot. On my second visit he didn't even check internally to feel if there was any improvement, he never asked how I was or if I'd seen improvements or had any concerns. Honestly if I had not already paid I wouldn't go back.
I feel embarrassed and honestly don't know what to do, it consumes my every moment of every day. I have no one to talk to about it because I feel so ashamed. I don't have a partner and not expecting to get one any time soon.
I wasn't expecting miracles but I was hoping for small changes.
When you see a gynaecologist for a problem that you're struggling with and hand over £4500 of your cash you kind of expect a little support and encouragement.

Feeling anxious.
I had my second treatment yesterday. Relatively painless.
I was hoping for the same instant result as last time; instant tightness and swelling, I saw that as a real positive. This time I feel looser and can't squeeze my finger at all.. but maybe that's normal? I don't know..
No cramps at all, a little discharge (which I rarely have normally) but that's to be expected.
I shall keep you updated over the next few days.. fingers crossed.

Sooo.. day 20!
I'm looking forward to my next Femilift, I don't feel as tight as I did on days 3-9 but I feel hopeful that all three treatments need to be completed for me to feel the real benefits.
I'm still doing my Kegals 4 times a day and can feel myself getting stronger as I can hold for longer. Unfortunately I still can't grip my finger and I don't feel quite as snug as I did on day 7. I'm finding this both upsetting and frustrating; maybe the Dr was right, there's no hope and I do need surgery.
It's tricky because I don't have an incontinence problem so it's hard to judge if there's any other improvement.
Also I'm becoming completely neurotic and putting my finger inside myself 50 times a day so am I overthinking?
I hoped my Elvie Kegal contraption would help with informing me of my progress. Problem is it fluctuates daily so how on earth can it be monitored? Yesterday my LV strength was 1.9 and today it's 9.4 and I do them at the same time every day. But I'll keep at it, it's only 20 days in Kitty!!
I wouldn't expect a bubble-butt if I'd only been squatting 20 days.
Is anybody even listening? I'll still keep you updated anyway, plus it's nice to talk about it.